Last night i tried to hang myself.
I did evrything right. No one was home, took the rope, tied it perfectly on the support. And did a slip knot on the other end. Put it across my neck and jumped. I felt myself going unconsious. And them black. All i could see was blackness. A few minutes later i regained consciousness. Evrything around me was moving, couldn’t even stand up. After like 10 mins or so i stood up and realised that i somehow managed to get myself off the noose. And my head swollen, neck swollen too, and my face it was like all the arteries and veins in face just blew up. I have problem swallowing anything from water to normal fruits. Probably damaged my trachea or something.
I am going to try it again today. But this time with sleeping pills. Taking sleeping pills, putting the noose around my head and waiting for the pills to knock me out. And then BOOM out of this world.