give up

I Dont know what to do anymore my life’s fucked no one cares about me and they say they do but it’s all lies! I’m a 15 yr old girl and I get used all the time boys use me say they love me then do stuff with me and dump me I want to start valueing myself more buy all I ever think is why would anyone want to b  with me they can do better an  that’s because I hate myself · I was really close with my nan and grandad and they got put into a care home recently an  I feel like I’m having a break down I cant stop crying everywhere I go I have memories of them I used to tell the everything I was round their house every day because I had no one else  to talk to my dad walked out o  me when I was  little and I have 3 brothers and sisters so my mum doesn’t really have time for me· And my mum Maried my stepfather in September who raped me in the August but she knows now everyone does an  he’s just gone to prison and I feel sad because we was quite close aswell and now he’s gone and I no he deserves it but no one knows how it feels u feel guilty and bad and even miss them I miss him loads and now the worst thing is all my family that know everytime they look at me they feel sorry for me and I hate it! I want to feel normal again but I can’t because I feel like my mum blames me for all of It I just wanna die and not be in pain anymore and be in peace but I can’t think of an easy way to kill myself I can’t do this anymore I just want someone to say they love me and mean it

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