I don’t mean shit in this world. Being trans is only for the skinny and straight ones who will quickly change and pass and be accepted by women. Someone fat and ugly like me will always be judged by what’s on the outside and never have a chance in hell at love with a man. It’s useless for me to be so fat and ugly that no man will give me a chance. Transition or passing won’t change anything because only straight men are into my kind of music and the things I like. I’ve never had a chance in hell being born female and so fucking ugly. I really just want to be dead when I see someone that I love complain about being single and how no one wants him when he’s all I think about. I’m too old for this shit, to live in this kind of pain and feel embarrassed to be alive when I’m obviously not wanted in this world. I can’t wait to get the money that I need to die. I’m almost 40 with no significant or long term relationships, never been loved and can’t be loved because all that matters is what you look like.
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Hi sweetie, You’re not alone. I’ve been alone for along time. I’ve been treated like shit by men. I’ve been thinking that only women would really understand me. I’m getting things in order for my ultimate suicide. I’m done . Please understand that mor’es of our society have made you the way you are. There is not an ugly person y Only ugly souls. I’ve seen them. I’m really drunk right now, to numb the pain
know something, people have told me im beautiful and ive never had a boyfriend. im an incest survivor. im 43. it’s like an invisible radar, they stay away from people like me. its not looks, it is that you are a beautiful soul no doubt, and most people are ugly souls like joy said, so they cant stand your light. trust me it is not looks. i feel strongly i will die with no family or husband or children. ever. until i finally go to heaven.
Stop telling yourself you aren’t beautiful. It’s not true those people who made you believe it are ugly. Like the others said before it’s the heart wich is the most important. Beeing trans and gay isn’t easy at all (sometimes being gay is difficult enough). My brother is in the same situation as you are and he almost gave up I’m happy he didn’t because it became better. It’s still far from perfect but a good day was a good day. It can’t get worse than it already is although I don’t believe in it: It’ll be better.
*sometimes
This doesn’t have to do with what you wrote, but here: Everyone, including you, has the power to allieviate the suffering of others. So don’t commit suicide.
(You and other people reading this, I don’t want you guys getting so stressed out from helping others that you’d want to commit suicide though.)
(And don’t let failure stop you from trying anymore).