my life

well, they recomended this page to me, because it is anonymous, and because here i would be able to talk about my suicidal thoughts or actions, and well, here i go: i’m very unstable, ever since my mother died i’ve been that way, i almost never talk to anyone at school, my father hates me, my brother too, school gives me a lot of stress and today i really dont know why i go there any more, my few friends are also suicidal, and well, literally no mater what i do, like sport or watever, i never get rid of the stress or the pain, i have tried to commit suicide already about 16 times, either it be by overdose, hanging myself, locking myself in the car with toxic gases, none has worked, i went to a psicologist to see if he could help me with my pain, the pain of knowing that every single day of my life is the same, no mater what i do, my life is meaningless, and i really want to die, if there is someone out there reading this, please contact me, i need someone to talk to, like badly need it, so here is my email: thyanark@gmail.com , if by any chance you do want to talk to me please do it.