Nights like this I wonder why I’m here
I have so much to say to cry for and of course no one is near
I feel everything but fear when it wins.
I just wanna end everything at once
I don’t see a reason to why I’m still around. Not one fuckin reason.
Everyday it’s something new.
It’s not anyone’s fault, but I do wish you knew
I yell and scream the pain away
But when it’s inside I can’t bare but to stray
To stray to a place where no one can go
There, no one can make me smile or hurt me
No one can say they’ll be there then leave me.
Nobody can touch me.
The crazy thing is the closest thing I feel to my heart is my dog.
He’s the only thing that’s clear to me in this world full of fog.
Maybe it’s the way I grew up.
Maybe it’s the way I change up.
Every other week it feels like a battle for my life.
I’m not sure if I’ll make it that far, as far as to be someone’s wife.
Can you imagine how tiring this is?
It’s a fuckin disease.
I don’t matter to anyone.
I don’t matter to myself anymore.
I just wanna be normal