I don’t have any friends.
I don’t have anyone.
I’ve never had a girlfriend.
I’ve never had sex.
I’ve never had a job.
I’ve never kissed.
I never take risks.
I never try doing something.
I hate myself.
I despise myself.
I loathe myself.
Never asked for this.
Never wanted to be brought into this world.
I don’t wanna live.
I don’t wanna suffer.
People can be happy, just not me.
Life is beautiful, just not mine.
Life has a meaning and a purpose, I’ll just never be able to fulfil it.
I care to what people think about me.
I’m an attention whore.
I want to be accepted.
I want to fit in.
I want to be just like everyone else.
I’m a selfish bastard.
I like to compare myself to others so I can feel better about myself.
I have no self-esteem.
I hate my reality.
I fucking hate who I am.
I cry often.
I cry in public.
I’m a loser.
I’m a pathetic fucking loser.
I wanna die.
Suicide doesn’t seem so bad now.
Some people just aren’t supposed to be happy.
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But you are still here, so that means your not meant to go yet. Much of what you have said applies to me as well, go out and change it man. Life is a game, play it to win. You want to be happy, then you have to find it, usually happiness doesn’t just happen on a random day.
Don’t give up. No matter how bad this life gets.
ha your unluckymale right?
before the storm took me i was the kind of same; never had sex, never kissed, never had friends, and many more of what you said. then everything changed. my curse is also my blessing. either wait for the storm to come to you, or you go to it. but things will change.
This is no criticism of you or your posts-but I wonder why we post at all-whining about our lives to others, confessing that we wish we were dead, because our lives suck?
I mean if one wants to die, they should just do it. What does that decision have to do with anyone else? If a person knows their life is completely shitty as one can imagine and no hope of making it better, why go on? Why live in misery?
Don’t get me wrong-I’ve posted here a few times about how much I hate my life also and how bad it is, how unfair it is….but why do it? No one else can do anything for you-aside give you some feedback and share their experiences.
I guess most of us don’t really want to die-it’s wishing that we could have a better life-saying it out loud. The only relief we get is psychological through talking about it-feeling we’ve been heard. Dunno, it’s all so pointless it seems.
It seems we post here because we really don’t want to die, and screaming for help or we feel we can tell your story to random strangers and not be judged as the people we actually know in the real world would disown us for what we say on here.
Ya good point, makes sense.
I would trade my life which at time has been awesome in the extreme with you, if you had a loving and respectful and unsupportive and unbullying family. trust me, you cant enjoy the fruits of your list above without having family who trips you up because they hate you and your achievements- especially having come from such a bad past, instead of pride they give you jealousy and hate. I come from a very rare family where everyone had a parent beat neglected or abused them.