I look in the mirror and see someone I don’t know. I try really hard to get up everyday, but it is soo hard. I go to school, but I don’t see the point, it’s getting me know where. Applying for jobs is a lot easier said then done. I found out today that my mother helped my sister’s boyfriend find a job and he got it. After she promised that she would help, and she through me under the bus last mouth. She let me do an interview at a school that would have helped me get a degree and I would have had a job, but no she said it was too expensive even after we went over the money and what not. She talked to my dad and they railroaded me at dinner. Why did she let me go through the hoops at the school just to tell me know and I had to pay her back for the $50 application fee. Why do I bother I just wish that I could go to sleep on night and not walk up. I just can’t take it anymore them telling me that I can do anything I set my mind to. They laughed at me when I told them I wanted to have a kid, I did the research and I know can afford it. Maybe I should just end it all
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dont end it all. you have your whole life ahead of you.
But, why does it not feel like that way though
you are only in your early 20s, you are in good health, and you can get a job, and work your way through school at the worst. dont be discouraged because of negative family, we all have them. 🙂
Sadly your parents are idiots. Even more sadly, almost all parents are idiots at one point or the other, lol. If i had to count the times i’ve trusted in my parents only to have them fail on me afterwards, i’d run out of numbers. Funny thing is that, like you mention in your case, they do outdo themselves for other people, so i’m guessing that’s a pretty common thing.
If you already see that you can’t rely on your parents, you might want to look for another way to achieve what you want, without involving them, otherwise you are setting yourself for another disappointment. If you say you can afford having a kid, why not put that in hold in order to get the degree you want instead? that way you can have more chances to better support that kid when you eventually have one.
You don’t need to be on a site like this. Go do some volunteer work, anything, this is not your time. Promise you that 🙂
Parents. Some of them no more than hurt children, punching out all their frustrations on their “loved ones”. I’m sorry, that’s Shit and there’s no other way of looking at it. Maybe there might be a way to get out of there? You deserve to be with good people who love and respect and believe in you. I do. Big hug xxx