An ended love story..

yes, unfortunatly my love story ended before it even started.. i feel destroyed, depressed, dead.. in every possible way..i knew that i will end.. i didn’t want it of course but i knew it will happen..cause all my life i never had something so beautiful and amazing, before i met him.. we stayed together almost a year.. full of good things and bad ones, we had dreams like any couple, maybe ours were bigger, but all i know that we had that feeling between us, that feeling that no other word can describe it.. MORE THAN LOVE.. PASSION.. but we used to fight a lot , almost about everything, usualy because of me, cause i did many mistakes, that doesn’t mean he didn’t but me ohh ..but i”ve honestly tried to change it’s not easy you know but i kept trying.. i almost left everything to say only with him.. i trusted no one but him.. i tried to give him everything, maybe i can’t show love easily but i swear i have tried my best, he litterely was everything to me, i couldn’t imagine myself without him.. he loved me too you know.. so much but i think ive hurted him i didn’t mean it , i just talked to my ex knowing that i told him that i won’t talk to him again so when he found out he said i’m a layer and i hurt him so much and i don”t deserve his trust, even that i didn’t say anything to my ex i mean something bad i never wanted to cheat on him i can never do it ever, but he said i ve cheated on his trust, and he can never ever believe another word from me, this was all by messages when this happen we were away from eash other.. so i stayed one month calling him and begging him to forgive nd telling him how i love him and just give another chance to make it up for you he said he tried and tried but he just cant he cant believe me any more, any thing i said he didn’t believe, than one day and i was still away he told me we should break up i love you but i can’t live without or be with you i just can”t, ive told him we can be friends and everything he said okay, and it has been one month now since we break up, and i still cry at night, before i stopped myself when i felt im gonna cry cs he told me at least you cry me i don’t so i said that’s not fair but after a while i had a family problem which i said in my precedent post and i was beaten anyway now i cry everynight before i sleep i cry when i see that he accepted girls on facebook i cry when i see the way he talks to me i cry when he told me realy mean worlds.. like i said it has been two month now and we still didnt see each other..but how come that i still have hope, how come that i love him this much.. i told him i can accept any condition and just give another chance and if it didn’t work i will never disturbe you again he said he s so tired of fights and giving me so many chances each time i do a problem but i ve told him that i ve changed and i will do anything to make it up for you and make you happy again and how fool i was , but i honestly love him more than anything and if i could have one last chance i won”t waste it, i know he still loves me that’s why i don’t wanna give up on us, he keeps teliing u should forget about me cause we will never go back i just can’t but i won’t lose hope..until i find out that he doesn”t love me anymore than i may say that my love story ended before it even started..