Found this quote and thought of it to be very true. I’m done. I’m sorry mom, dad, and brother but I need to do this. When I get the chance I’m hanging myself. I have no motivation to get a job, start a career, or just live in general. Nothing appeals to me in life. I’m a broken soul with no home here. I have parents that love me and I have a roof over my head and I should be grateful for that which I really really am but I don’t want it. I just don’t want to be here anymore. The depression hasn’t been as bad as it normally has but the feeling of wanting to kill myself has become quite stronger. I don’t really feel depressed anymore because I’m at piece with the decision of ending my life.
They’ll see the scars that they don’t know about when I’m dead. I’m just not normal. When I cut myself it sort of feels orgasmic. That’s not normal at all. When I’m done cutting, I rub the edge of blade across my neck gently as well because it feels so good. That’s not normal either. I fucked up the one night and cut my leg open because i used a different knife than usual. It was an accident. It was very deep. I could start to see tendons. That’s not normal. I dream of the day I die. I just want to go out quickly. No one knows anything is still wrong with me. It will all be unexpected. I don’t belong here, I never did.
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True Quote. Dying inside.
i agree with the quote. but listen too me. the pain will stop eventually. it has too. no matter if you think its not normal or normal, its you. love yourself. a main reason im still here is because i clasp onto two things. one is having a baby, holding her or him and seeing myself and everything good. two is because i yearn too be loved, strong and long, i want a relationship that will last and i want too feel loved. even if only for a year i want it. you have too find your two things and hold onto them.
I’m glad you found things that keep you here. Never let go of those reasons so you never let go of life. I never plan even getting married let alone having children so I can’t hold on to that. If I’m still around in the future then I plan on getting a vasectomy so I can’t even have kids. I don’t trust girls, any of them so I don’t want to be loved so I can’t have that as a reason. Basically the only reason I’m here is because I’m scared of life after death. Soon, that won’t be enough to keep me here.
You r right,dusty96.I m in the same place where u r.I just want to die so badly.I attempted to hang myself twice and failed miserably.I hope I will have more luck the third time.I m so weak,I don’t have the courage to live or to die.I never even had a real friend.My life till today has been an empty bottle of vodka.
Maybe theirs a reason you have failed while trying to kill yourself. Maybe you actually do have a purpose unlike what you believe. If you have tried to kill yourself twice and you’re still alive, I believe there’s a reason for that. Good luck to you in life Luke. I hope things turn around for you. I hope life shows you that you belong. It is hard to make friends, but you can. Just try, be yourself. If someone doesn’t like you for who you are, fuck them. Take care.