tired of being one. I wwant to avoid it but cant. and im so alone. If any of you people have someone in your life, like you have children or a fiancée , or bf/gf you guys are so lucky. you shouldn’t even be here, I hate you. if you cant see who ur with. im alone in this world and have no one to live with. ive had it, im tired of feeling misunderstood and lonely. im diseased no one is going to want me and its my fault. why keep living on my own? im so tired. I always think of cutting deep and down the veins. does that help really?ive read of many people failing . cant get a gun anywhere. ive thought of hanging or drowning. I don’t know what choices there are out there. any more? I cant keep living this way
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Being a little different doesn’t mean no one will like you and that you’ll stay alone forever.
But also, just because someone has others in their lives, fiance, kids, bf/gf, doesn’t mean they’re automatically happy and not alone.
Being alone while in a relationship is much more painful than being completely alone.
You might be misunderstood by people you have met until now, but you never know who you’ll meet later on.
man i hate that word with a real fiery passion. ive been called it more than a few times by jocks who wanted to impress their friends or gf. it hurts. fuck that word. i dont know where you got that label but it aint true man.
it aint true. you will rise again. you will rise and you will fall but you still stand strong through it all like you have been.
I’ve been called ****** a few times? Once I was simply walking to my car in after picking up some stuff at Walmart and a group of young fucks yelled it from their car as they sped off from me. They don’t know me… there are more times but that one is the one that comes to mind. It happened over 10 years ago and I still remember it… needless to say it stung.
You mentioned that you are tired of being one… the f word. I hate that word so much. You are misunderstood…. in pain… you feel alone.
I don’t know if there is a God but I said a little prayer for you. I hope it works… I prayed peace for you and for you to feel alone no more.
Hey I’m a fat gay transguy, I’ll never get a man. I have a friend that I love, would marry and Chris forever, but yeah, guys never date anyone fat.
Are you serious? I am a fat ugly straight guy. I have brain tumors that caused pituitary problems when I went through puberty. My hormones were all messed up and I grew huge female breasts but my penis failed to develop.
I am almost 50 years old and I am a virgin. I have only ever been with prostitutes and every time I attempted to have sex I failed because I am physically too small to penetrate. Every woman who has seen me naked has either burst out laughing or has been disgusted. I tried to block out all the negative comments and all the humiliation and I continued trying to have sex because I never felt like a real man.
Almost 30 years and thousands of prostitutes later, I have now developed a humiliation perversion and I can only become aroused when women laugh at me and tell me how pathetic I am and that I should just kill myself because I will never satisfy any woman.
I now need humiliation to become aroused and every woman who sees me naked is quick to do it. I simply get on camfrog or chaturbate and wait for the humiliation. But what happens now?
I get many men watching my cam who genuinely are attracted to my fat body that has disgusted every woman who has seen it. I have had 18 year old guys begging me to let them spend the night with me, they love the appearance of my tiny cock and want to suck me. No woman has ever willingly touched me without being paid. Every woman who has seen my tiny penis and that is in the thousands now due to my humiliation perversion, has been disgusted or just burst out laughing and told me to go kill myself.
Fuck, how I wish I was gay or even Bi. I now realize that being gay would be my only chance of ever finding a partner who was genuinely attracted to me and really wanted to touch my body. This is the huge advantage women and gay men have over straight guys. All males have different kinks and perversions. There are males who love women over 600pounds and wont date anyone smaller. there are gay males who adore tiny penises and fat bellies and lust after them. I have never found any woman even slightly tolerant of my tiny penis. All women seem to want good looking slim, athletic guys with 6 pack abs and big cocks. Women don’t have kinky perversions to the extent that men do. If there were any women alive who truly lusted after fat men then I’m sure I’d have found them.
This has simply been my experience and it has seriously made me wish I was gay so I could one day find a partner who would accept me for who I am. I want a partner who is truly sexually attracted to me and wants to be with me and this has only ever happened with men. I maybe could find a woman accepting of my fat belly and tiny penis but that is the difference, she would simply be accepting of it, tolerating it, all the time wishing I had a 6 pack and an 8 inch penis whereas I know for certain that there are heaps of guys out there looking for someone just like me. And I am fucking straight. What a cruel world we live in. Best of luck mate.
I’ve been called a ****** my whole life. I’ve never been in a relationship. My identity is invalid to 99% of people. And yeah, I want to kill myself. But there are people here that I need to stay for. You have those people, too. Reach out to them. Even if you don’t tell them how you want to die, tell them that you love them. You need them. And so what if someone calls you a ******? So what? Tell them to fuck off. Tell them that you love who you are. And as for the fact that you envy relationships, find someone you can platonically love, if not romantically. Find someone. Just say hello. Live, please. Stay alive. I’m always here if you need to talk.