49 yo and want to end my miserable existence. I just can’t cope anymore with this depression, and Ptsd. It has eaten me alive and destroyed any hope that I had. I have everything planed out, and with urges getting stronger every day, I don’t think it will be to long before I follow through. It breaks my heart knowing the pain I will cause those near and dear to me, but alive I am hurting them just as much if not more.
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Hey, we are similar in age…If you want to talk privately:
thomasgunn41@gmail.com
I understand where you’re at…
Need to talk? Here is a good place for that.
We are hear to listen. We don’t always have all the answers, far from it but we are great listeners and here if you need a shoulder to cry on, or need to vent.
PTSD is a *****, I know how hard it can be, sometimes we can’t get through it as the trauma that caused it, is just so deep and painful. Sometimes all we can do is learn to “live” through it and move in an ever steady motion while trying to keep it at bay.
Again, we are listening if you wish to share further or just want to chit chat.
I just don’t know what to do anymore. Feel paralyzed
I know that feeling. I’m 38 years old and suffer from PTSD and everything that goes along with it. I’ve recently come off my 5th major depressive episode and this time, I didn’t bounce back and it lasted much longer than the previous episodes and I asked my therapist, will these episodes keep getting worse? He didn’t have an answer for me, and I am truly afraid for another one to hit. If they progress, I don’t know if I can do it again. Surviving that pain again is just incomprehensible to me.
I’m sorry to hear you too are going through this. I understand about the reoccurring depressive episodes and how painful they are. I have been having them for 8 years. They are becoming less frequent but when they hit, they hit so very hard. I am just getting over one and am feeling a little hopeful at the moment. I hope things get better for you .
And for you. Thank you.