I don’t consider myself as being mentally ill but doctors seem to think that suicidal people are just that. All I believe is that suicide is right for me and yet I will be considered mentally ill with being locked up as a possibility. I am not like an animal clinging onto life no matter what purely because of instinct; I am an intelligent human being that has come to believe suicide is right for me through logic and with thought. Life is meaningless at the best of times, others can’t see this because they have so much going on around them, I have little in my life so I have time and can see how pointless life really is and especially mine, and I want out.
The world is a truly nasty place to be and I have no future other than being alone in it, am I to suffer the pain of migraines with nothing to offset it with. Just to sit alone because I can’t integrate into a society that overwhelms me. Tell me, is it so wrong to end my life if I do it without involving anyone else in my suicide, I so long for a peaceful death.
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There is this line from a show i watched recently, where a character sums up how the world kinda functions in a pretty accurate way: “The universe is a cruel, uncaring void. The key to being happy isn’t a search for meaning. It’s to just keep yourself busy with unimportant nonsense, and eventually, you’ll be dead.”
That line struck me pretty hard, since that’s what i used to see on a daily basis whenever i stopped and looked people around me. Most people don’t look for a meaning at all, they just live. There are several reasons for that, but it’s only natural that in a world where most people just live, the rest of us are considered as ill, sick, you name it. Doctors usually see us as just a problem to fix, because what else can they do other than trying to “fix us” or give us meaning?
I guess that what we are supposed to do is just find the right balance of rationality and sensibility so we can endure life… but then, why should we? does other people really have the authority to makes us do that? i really don’t know. Wish i could find an answer for that and that my post could be more than just a “i relate” comment, sorry about that.
I completely agree with you.
At some point people don’t see a point in continuing. … not all people are mentally ill. I have read about a couple from Canada, one of the partners was terminally ill and the other chose to exit with their partner; the would-be survivor knew that the grief and anguish was not one they could bear. Some people have been whittled away bit by bit with a series of challenging events, whittled so much that any minor challenge becomes an unsurmountable mountain. Others have severe trauma that lead them into being unable to cope…. I could go on.
People, in my opinion, don’t have to have a mental illness… they can be perfectly 100% in their right mind.
Sometimes life can be like a living hell. But there are lots of good moments that come along here and there an I have just learned to keep going through the “living hell” parts enough to come to more of those “good moments”
Pets are the only thing I find comfort in. Unconditional love and helps my chronic lonliness.
Yeah i agree with your post
I find comfort in my solitude. I have learned to draw into self, this world is a cruel place I tell you. I will savour these few furtive moments I have left and the rest will be history.
Completely agree with you Nias.
Nias, I agree with you wholeheartedly. You are not mentally ill. Neither am I.
Just for the record, I believe those that do cling to this life of suffering and misery are the ones that are mentally ill.
My younger brother (a certifiable Jesus freak) tells me that my problems stem from reading to much Friedrich Nietzsche (yeah, and that from a guy who believes in Middle Eastern fables and decorates his house with bloody corpses on crosses… and I’m the one that’s fucked up in the head simply because I want out of this insane world). Well, Nietzsche just makes sense to me. He always has. He’s my favorite philosopher. With Schopenhauer coming in a very close second.
Well, Nietzsche was a lot smarter than I’ll ever be, so I’ll let him answer the main question in your post. Here is Nietzsche’s thoughts on suicide. It’s simple and to the point. I hope it helps.
“The thought of suicide is a great consolation: by means of it one gets through many a dark night.”
Respectfully,
Jack