Worthless

I’m kind of in the same boat, I’m a guy, never been good with people. I’ve had social anxiety and generalized anxiety my whole life and because of that I never developed social skills. Around 32 I made a huge change and started studying social skills, I was so unaware I didn’t even know I was bad with people, I was always stuck in my head, lonely and depressed all the time which I was also unaware of. I’m obsessive, it took me a while and I felt like an idiot often but I started making some progress talking with people. I was doing really well for a while but slowly regressed back to my former self. It’s hard being alone, feeling unloved, just wanting to cuddle or some attention. I think the biggest reason I am this way is because I’m negative, not always of course but it’s definitely an energy I give off, I also suffer from resting as*hole face which probably makes me look like a serial killer. From my observations the people with the best social skills are usually the best liars, not all of course but a descent amount. I’m not good at being fake, I mean I was ok but it felt funny. My solution is to try and be happy with myself, learn new things, do kind things for people without a reason. I was at my happiest when I was pushing myself outside of my comfort zone learning to talk to people, it can be hard to start and keep up. I’ve kinda sunk back into my depressive state and washed my hands of people, I hope you have better luck!