Day 5

So I am currently pregnant and 5 days ago I called my now ex boyfriend because he hadn’t called me or checked on me in 3 days ? So we had a conversation and he had told me that he had a new girlfriend and that they’d been with each other those 3 days. That really broke me down I couldn’t stop crying and I sat there and thought about how to end it all because I was so hurt ? I never thought this would happen so soon. Just the other day we were talking about how excited we were for our family. Glad to say I didn’t follow through with my sucide because my baby’s more important and I know I’m gonna make him or her so proud someday but 5 days later I still can’t stop the tears. It’s hard for me to understand that he really left me like this and doesn’t really care. I still find myself caring about him even though he probably doesn’t think of me at all idk it’s just so hard and I don’t have anyone to talk to but I’m glad I have my unborn child or I probably wouldn’t be here typing this today. I just try to wake up stronger every day but it just gets harder everyday when you think it should get easier. In my opinion whoever said it gets easier every day lied because it only gets harder for me.