so my daughter also has depression, maybe other things, but she is only 13 and really just started her journey. i feel like i have no room to breathe. no room for me. i know it sounds selfish, but i have struggled since 8 or 9 as she has.i have threats and attempts of suicide in my life. she posts all this stuff on facebook, everybody calls me. what am i doing?…do more…do this…what about this. i have had to put all my treatment for my depression and fibromyalgia and neuropathy on hold because i am disabled and don’t work. all gas in car, extra money goes to her treatment, her help. I know that is my job as a mom, but i am just so hopeless and down. And it is never enough, no matter what i do, say, get, give…it is never enough for her…she will break open a pencil sharpener and try to cut over the one thing she didn’t get instead of being thankful; for the 4 things she did get. tired
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Oh Hun. This isn’t fair on you at all. Can you have a joint counselling session and let the therapist know what she does and then perhaps pay for a couple more sessions for your daughter to help her realise what she is doing? I wonder if there is a charity who could offer her counselling for free? Your wellbeing is important too. *hugs*
What treatment does she have? She really needs someone to help her manage her thoughts so she can see how much you’re trying for her. I can’t really imagine what it’s like to be in your situation and having to put all your effort into caring for someone when you need care for yourself as well. I started getting suicidal when I was around that age, and I’ve had much worse phases since… but before I knew what was wrong with me and before I had the knowledge of time, I had a more limited perspective, so it held me back that much more. It is right to hand concern over to the young ones… but even if you can’t afford to pay for treatment for yourself, you should be looking for any groups or free help you can find, even just to talk. In some ways you’re dealing with twice as much as the average person with those problems, so maybe you could do with another to take some of the strain off. You do need room for yourself. None of what you said is selfish.
I’ve read your post three or four times and I can’t think of anything better to say, I just want you to know you were heard. Trix is completely right. Sending you a hug, light and love xx
I hate being speechless. I don’t know what to say to comfort you. If I was there I’d hug you and hold your hand. ?
You should care for yourself first and foremost. Or you’ll be useless to her. Set an example for her by caring for yourself.
It’s amazing what others go through on a day to day.. It puts your own problems into perspective…. I send much love and I hope you find a way to resolve this to make it easier on yourself.. Xoxo
well, we do have medicaid…both of us. that helps. it is more the transportation costs. i have my grandma’s car, but i have to provide the gas and what not. we live in a town and have to go to a small city down the interstate for doctors. hopefully i will get my SSD soon and they will make it better. I have 3 docs that say i can’t work, but it still has not been approved. was actually denied. thanks y’all, it helps to have y’all to talk to.
I can’t believe they wouldn’t accept three doctors’ opinions. I hope that’s something you can keep fighting.
It is in appeal right now.
Good luck, I really hope it changes soon. I’ve seen people in that position, and it was a huge strain on them. But they found things much easier when they finally got the recognition and money that they needed.