When I feel as though I’m a burden or am not doing good enough for this world, for those in my life or those I love, I feel worthless. And I spiral down to nothingness. My thoughts and feelings become a relentless battle of why I no longer need to be here in this world.
I feel like I am not good at anything. Or good enough. My boyfriend deserves so much better. I know that if I weren’t here, I’d eventually be forgotten about, no one would have to worry about me anymore, and I wouldn’t negatively affect anyone else’s life anymore.
People like me aren’t meant for this world. I’m not strong enough, tough enough, and do not have enough of what it takes to persevere.
I just need help. I need someone to talk to, but I can’t financially afford professional services.
I’m glad I found this site. I don’t feel so alone anymore ..
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I hope you continue to feel less alone here. 🙂 I know what it’s like to feel that way, but you’re not worthless. Not at all. You’ve made it so far, and that says a lot about how strong you really are.
Thank you so much Trix =) This brightened up my day. Thank you for taking the time to read this and understand where I’m coming from. I woke up today feeling terrible from this moment last night, but after getting outside and being a little productive, I feel a little better. I just am glad that I am not alone or crazy in how extreme I feel when things get me very down.
Nice name phoenix. I like to think of myself as a phoenix. Unfortunately im still fuckin stuck in the ashes to rise up. Me thats a big part of my shit is the lack of contribution. Lil Wayne says it best in the song “Fuck Tha World” when he talks of his fellow gangsters gettin killed and he be like “dear lord youve taken too many of my people, like what the fuck am i dojng?” Paraphrased obviously but hes essentially asking. Jimmy, dalton, and derrick all got killed, why the fuck am i still here? Like how am i makin a difference. Which depresses me because its Lil Wayne. Say what you want about him, hes a rap legend. If he felt that way about himself and hes done all this, seriously, what the FUCK am i doing?