i was so depressed and stressed that i made myself sick. i was in and out of the doctor for 4 years. i was throwing up almost everyday for 4 years. i had an ulcer. i had headaches all day and night. i was so depressed that i became sick. it is a sickness but i did not realize my depression was the reason for my illnesses. i thought i was dying, i thought something was really wrong with me when in reality it was just my mind. it was me making myself sick and in a way i new it. i figured if i was sick enough someone would care. i thought my life would be better if i was sick. i grew more and more depressed, but i couldnt keep putting myself through that. i hated myself so much for so long. i still do but i am working on myself. i am trying. i want to turn my life around. i want to be happy. all i have ever wanted was to be happy and loved. and one day i will. i just have to keep working on loving myself. i have to learn to let people in, to allow other people to love me. i need to learn that it is okay to feel this way sometimes but that i should love myself rather than hate myself. i need to make myself better before this depression takes over my life.
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Great attitude, fight to keep it, the depression will try to steal it from you but don’t let it win
Some Self help books could help. I am currently listening to a few audiobooks. If you need any recommendations let me know!
I would really love it if you would give me some recommendations…
What part of your mentality are you trying to change or gain? Like
The 5 Love Languages for Men: Tools for Making a Good Relationship Great by Gary Chapman
How to Win Friends and Influence People in the Digital Age by Dale Carnegie & Associates (I haven’t listened to this one yet but has a lot of content.
The Secret by Rhonda Byrne
Social Engineering: The Art of Human Hacking by A. T. Chandler
The Problem of Pain by C.S. Lewis (Not a book for religious person)
The 7 Habits of Highly Effective People by Stephen R. Covey
The Charisma Myth: How Anyone Can Master the Art and Science of Personal Magnetism by Olivia Fox Cabane
All these books are unabridged audiobooks as well. The charisma myth is the book I am currently on. It says some really interesting things. These books are for people who are trying to improve themselves as a person. If you are interested in depression and management of depression. I would suggest reading some psychology books on depression. Read the reviews and see which synopsis is most interesting to you. You can learn a lot about depression and management through those books.