so my father told he should never been with my mum and she’s ugly and she was a mistake in his life
idk why he told me that !! and he told me that he hate us and should’ve gone long time ago..
idk how i was counting on him a lot of things even my college and stuff ..
and now i’ve left with nothing.. and i finally knew he doesn’t even care and want me to be failure and sad
I can’t even take a breath without feeling this pain in my heart ..
this life is too long i can’t keep living with this thought
being alone and wake up everyday with nothing just eating and sleeping ..this really sad life i can’t take anymore
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i wish i had a brain tumor or cancer or get in a coma..
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I think it’s interesting that you’d wish a brain tumor on yourself rather than your father. Even though I’m a pacifist, I believe sometimes well directed anger is healthy.
Your father is cursed. Cursed with living with himself. Judging by the things he said I’d say he’s a very miserable human being. When you are old enough you will be able to get away from him.
There are many people here on the Suicide Project that don’t know you but think you deserve to live, you deserve to have a chance. We don’t know your whole story or where you are at or the problems you face. We do want you to have hope.
Good things can happen. Good things do happen. Sometimes the only difference between a good thing and a bad thing is how you look at it.
Blink your tired eyes and hope.
This is all very heartbreaking to hear about your father.
“being alone and wake up everyday with nothing just eating and sleeping” Can you get a job? You should start there. Is there anything preventing you from doing that? A job should give you purpose and help jump start you in the morning. It could also give you a routine to build your life around.
Best wishes.
i should be in college but i’ve canceled this semester ..