I’m so stressed these days I feel no-one loves me . I’m sooo sad I want to die. I’m pregnant (5months)with a little girl . I love her but I feel she will change my whole life and she will just put me in trouble. but I can’t get red of her because she is just a peace of me . I’m a teenager it was a mistake . I hate my life . I feel I don’t have true friends because in this moment I felt we are going apart in the moment that I need help. I’m sick of overthinking . I want to commit suicide and me and my lovely girl will die at the same time.
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I’m really sorry to hear that, but in my opinion the baby deserves to live. Hopefully she will bring happiness to your life. Be strong!
Oh darling please do not do that. You are responsible for two people right now, and it is a heavy weight, I know. But your life has not been completely awful, has it? There were bright points. You should let her at least have a chance at life, then decide if you wish to end yours, but don’t make this choice for two, not when you are already five months. I can promise you that your baby will change your whole life, whether you keep her or give her up for adoption, but that’s not a bad thing. Both will be difficult. Never think that it was a mistake, or that it was trouble. You didn’t intend for it to happen, but it did. That’s ok. It happens, it’s not the end of the world, I swear. You have something so precious growing inside you. She loves you and she can’t judge you. No matter what there are resources, there are organizations and online communities, and people to reach out to, some won’t help but a lot will. Your friends aren’t equipped to handle this, neither are you, that might be why they are pulling away. For the moment at least don’t chase after them, go find people who will understand, I’m sure you’re not the first teen to get pregnant where you are, ask around, find them. Do some research, take care of yourself. I know teenage parents who both kept their kids and let them be adopted, it’s just based on what they could handle, and it’s ok to feel overwhelmed, it is a huge thing. You just need some help and support.
Don’t rely on your old friends for help. Look for other kinds of support, like support from people who have been or are going through the same thing. I don’t know if you’re getting any help for being depressed, but you should be getting more help with that as well. It isn’t something you should be forced to cope with alone, and with this happening you need lots of support.
It might seem like the least ideal time to have a child, but she could be the best mistake you’ve ever made. Given that you feel you can’t get rid of her and you love her, I hope you give both of you a chance.
Please, please try to find help for the stress and sadness and suicidal thoughts. It will begin to seem less overwhelming, less painful. Meanwhile take it one day at a time. Good luck, dear. I believe in you. We all love you here. Good luck. 🙂