theres always pain, sometimes it goes away but only for an hour or so. it hurts too much to be alive. I hate that I have to wait a week or two before I end it. my friends birthday is coming up and it would just be cruel to ruin it, so here I am wasting away.
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I was.. researching things tonight. and google brought me in a different direction to a comedian’s reply to an anonymous poster who mentioned being ‘in a really bad place’. And this comedian posted a LONG (way longer than any post on here ever, I think) reply to this anonymous fan. And part of it said
“We feel so much love when we feel it, but the trade off is we feel pain just as big. And love can often sting if it’s not requited, while pain only needs you as a receptor. I get it. I know what it feels like to feel emotions in a way that you know is much bigger than most people feel them. But this pain will pass, and it will be replaced by an equal and to be honest probably even bigger feeling of joy and love. At some point those feelings will come along and wash over you as much as the pain you’re feeling right now, and I just want to beg you to push through this painful stretch, because to someday feel love and joy as big as the pain you’re feeling in this moment will be SO, SO worth it. ”
thought I’d share, cuz I would prolly be doing other things if I hadn’t gone on google. I don’t know. I’m Sorry melodychild. Here’s a link to the full post if you want it. >http://thechrisgethardshow.tumblr.com/post/31345619495/for-gethard-anonymous-asks-gethard-i-know
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hello moderation, I haven’t seen you in awhile…
hi, melodychild. What’s happening? I’m sure there’s another solution.
I’m sorry you’re in so much pain.