I was born to fail. I have no qualifications. I have no future. Time to kill myself now. Doesn’t it? I’m 19 and I have no idea about my life and I have no skills too. Maybe I was born by a mistake. Achieved nothing during my lifetime. Help me if you can. Thanks for reading. Hard to breath. Holding so much pain inside me. No, still I’m not crying. Holding this pain for 1 year now. 🙁 ON THE FENCE
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I feel ya. I still don’t know what to do with my future and I’m a senior in college, and i’m just now deciding I don’t think I can do anything with these majors, and i feel like I’ve wasted all this money and time. It’s really hard to hold in all that pain. I’m sorry you’re feeling this way, I’m not much good at advice…which is stupid because one of my majors is psychology lol. But I try! Sometimes thinking about a time when things were good and you had that thing that got you really excited, and motivated you, can help. I’m sure trying to find something positive seems impossible right now and but just trying to find even the smallest things can help. I hope that was somewhat helpful for you?
Trying. Tired of trying. But still trying. I don’t know what I should do now. I hate my life.
Achievements take skills to secure them. Skills take time to learn. Learning only happens when you are ready AND in the right place. Surely you’ve played (name of video game)? Real life is just like that but with less rocket launchers and women tend to wear more clothes.
So take a breath. 19 is like the run up to the starting line. The real race hasn’t started yet. And 20 to 33 is like just figuring out what direction the race is going. There is no map. No instruction manual.
You weren’t born to fail any more than you were born to succeed. Shit happens. We grope in the dark. Preferably next to someone who wants to be groped.
My father tried to hire a guy to kill me before I was born. So what? It all worked out in the end and I can turn off his oxygen concentrator any time I want.
I know you feel wrong, lost, tired, numb, defeated. It’s the stupid depression talking. You should try talking to a professional. That is when you should scream and cry. Just get it all out. Therapists are pros, they will know how to help you get back on track.
Keep coming back here, too. OK?
I’m angry with myself. OK. Do you think I’m good enough? Am I late for a good future?
There are lots of people in the world who have no qualifications or skills and are much older than you. I hope this doesn’t come across as condescending, but please don’t let that cause you more pain and become another reason to die. When I’m at my worst, my mind starts to focus on the worst of every situation and using it to justify the pain and the suicidal thoughts. It makes it a lot more painful.
I’m so sorry you’re hurting so much. I’m hurting too. I can’t offer you any easy answers but I can offer you someone to talk to. 🙂
I don’t know what to do 🙁 broken. I have passes only. Not good grades. Yes. Dark covered me.
I’m sorry. I understand the feeling. I hope it helps just a little bit to know that somebody cares.
I think a pass is good – it’s what it says, a pass to go down new paths in life. Did you have any plans of what to do next before things became so dark? Did anything in particular make the pain start?
I’m following software side now. All the old years. Whole last years are waste of time and money. I haven’t got any vocational training even. 🙁 REGRET. Thanks.
All great comments tonight. I don’t have much else to add except keep talking, it really does help.
Hey, i’m 33 and i have no freaking idea of what i’m doing with my life, and there’s lots of people that get to the end of it (even at 80+) and still have no idea what they’re doing. Everything is temporary. We could say that we all were born by mistake, because you were competing against millions of sperms and you won the race, congrats, that’s an achievement on itself.
That said, there’s also the fact that you might find the calling of your life only to realize you like something else better a few years down the line. Like SeeSmith says, 19 is almost like a starting point, and you still have plenty of time to find and lose reasons to live (only to find them again later), and most likely you’ll feel lost many times along the way, but the good thing of it is that you’ll realize little by little what you DON’T want (which is easier than knowing what you want). That in turn can lead you into finding what you do want to accomplish, which again, might change over and over again, but life would be kinda boring if it didn’t, wouldn’t it?
No idea if what i said makes any sense, but yeah, you’re welcome to comeback here and continue sharing whatever you’d like. If you want to go the pro route, therapists do help a lot when you find the right one for you (it might take a while).
MF you are from south of the equator. 99 – 33 * 6.02 * 10^33 / 180° = Big Drooler. Handsome, yes, but always a big drooler.
Actually i’m not handsome but i usually wake up in a small puddle of my own drool, so you’re 50% correct, which makes you right enough to have a cookie.
The macademia nuts ones are mine tho. That’s not negotiable.
You are the worst person to judge your level of handsomeness. Same rule applies to me.
MF well stated. All it is missing is BOOM! ^drops mike^
Poor mike, he’s going to be mad at you when he wakes up!
Nah he’s dead.
If this is the startline it is good. But I regret I didn’t have any foundation for start for last 18 years. Dying inside. Am I late?
Hell no you aren’t late. Your never to late to learn. There are all kinds of ways to get decent employment with little to no skills and then build on it. Hell just look at the presidential race right now if you want to see how few skills it takes to run a country for God sakes.
Politics aside, because it has little bearing on your situation, never ever say it is too late. I promise you from the bottom of my heart it is absolutely not too late. It is only too late after you are dead.
Nah, you’re always in time to start dying inside.
More seriously tho… not at all, i have some college mates that are 40-50 and just now started studying what they really wanted to. I’m studying a second career now too (after completely throwing down the drain my previous one), so i’d say you’re not late by any means.
*You’re. See education gets you NOTHING sometimes.
Not hardly. Also, I forgot to tell you the race has no finish line! It’s madness! But once you accept that you learn to enjoy the *process* of running the race. Enjoy the scenery. Challenge yourself but not others. Walk sometimes. Hop skip and jump if you are into that.
Take one day at a time. Don’t give yourself impossible goals. Live. Laugh. Love.