I hate my relationship I guess. I would not call it that. but being around him makes me hate my life. he wont leave. He lives with me because other wise he would be homeless. I cannot get a piece of mind. When I was homeless I still had to support him even though he was an ungrateful ass. I just want him gone I do not know what to do I feel like an emptied out shell. I want to die. I feel trapped in my own home. I have four jobs just so I do not have to be here with him. I could live very comfortably with just one and still pay my tuition but just being here makes my skin crawl. I feel weak and vulnerable. I want the old me back. I hate my life. no one loves me. noo one care. I am just a used up tool. I have no more to offer. I am drained. I can barely manage. I try only to be called a stupid ***** and ****. I cannot come to kill myself. But I desperatly wish someone would take my life
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Are you married to him? If so, start divorce proceedings. If not, just kick him out if he’s not contributing to the household. If he’d be homeless otherwise, it’s not your problem if he’s being abusive to you and if your ‘relationship’ isn’t working.
Why isn’t kicking him out an option? Are we talking lover, boyfriend, husband, relative, or Roommate from Hell?
It wouldn’t be your fault if he is homeless. I assume he is an adult. He is responsible for his own support network.
I understand wanting to be free of pain. But killing yourself because of you have a guest that won’t leave sounds pretty extreme.
I understand how that is. I don’t know how you can kick an unwanted partner out either. If they get violent you can call the cops (assuming you don’t have anything illegal on the premises and aren’t illegal yourself) and the cops will remove him then you can not let him back in (might have to change the locks to be sure). If they’re not violent then I don’t know either. Sometimes I want my partner to go because he can be very nasty and verbally abusive, like the name calling you have mentioned. I figure the agency leasing the apartment won’t want to get involved. Maybe a male relative, friend or colleague but I dunno, I don’t have anyone like that. It is really hard. Maybe you can save an escape fund and end the lease and get a new place. It is awful, living with someone you hate. My partner is trying very hard to be nice since the last time so I am not in a crisis situation with it right now but it will no doubt happen again. Don’t kill yourself. I know it seems like the only way to escape but there has to be a way. Sometimes I want to run away but he is sick and can’t look after himself, plus I have nowhere to go. If you’re a woman you could try a women’s refuge support line, they might know. It is abuse, verbal and psychological. Don’t kill yourself though.
Sounds like a moocher and he’s just using you. Like the others said here, you don’t owe him anything. You said you have a relationship but it doesn’t sound like you care for the guy-so why be with him at all?
If he’s making your life a living hell, tell him to get his act together, treat you with respect, get a job or face being homeless. Just be a little careful, people who feel they have nothing to lose can be a threat to you-so if there’s an easy way to get rid of him with no backlash, go for it.
You don’t owe this person anything and you shouldn’t have to suffer at his expense, in your own place that you’re paying for. Another option is that you can move out…also you can evict him, call the cops on him if you have to. There’s many ways to deal with this issue, main thing, get rid of him, he’s toxic to your life.