i am sick of loving people i will never have. it’s making me go insane. i need somebody that i like to like me back, for once. they never like me back. it’s always been like this, as long as i can remember.
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I always had the same thing happen to me. My guy friends (the ones I was of course head over heels for) would come to me for love advice about my girl friends. FML.
Been there too, not a nice place to be at (unless you enjoy suffering). It’s usually the other way around as well: if you have a friend that’s interested in you, you’ll never notice him/her. Fun how at times things never seem to match when it comes to love.
On the same boat. Im trying to get over someone who will never feel the same way. I hate love. Im about to give up.
@Ylem: I’ve been on both sides. My best friend (at them time, he has since distanced himself from me, can’t blame him I’m a real douchebag) called me right before he asked his current wife to marry him to make sure I wasn’t up for being with him. It broke my heart. I just wasn’t ready for what he was offering. He was offering the whole package, best friend, intellectual and creative challenge for the rest of my life, plus he would never leave me or cheat on me. I walked away. I just couldn’t bare to have that level of love and commitment in my life. I desperately miss his friendship many days, but I can’t have it, if I were to insert myself into his life it would ruin him. I was up in his city 5 years ago for a conference and I called him up and we went out cruising around the city and it was like we never parted. It was so wrong, wrong for me to be selfish to him, wrong for his wife. We just hung out and talked but I looked in his eyes and just knew he was still in love with me, and it has been 18 years, I hadn’t seen him in 18 years. In the end it isn’t about me, it is about him, and since I love him, I leave him alone.
Im bisexual. One would think I have the whole world to choose from. A wide range of options. Girls just get freaked out, especially where I live. Some people are still very close minded. I always fall for the straight girls who never feel the same way. They just see me as a joke. Guys just never understand me. But he did. He was the third person I told Im bisexual. Unlike the other two, he found me interesting. We have a lot of things in common, its hard to believe. He seems like the perfect match for me. Someone who understands me and I get him as well. Its so easy to be open with him because he never judges. I doubt I’ll ever see him again. I have to forget about him and move on I guess. For my own sanity.
@Ylem: that posting make me smile. And I’ll tell you why. I consider myself straight. I don’t go out actively looking for women, they just don’t do it for me. However there is this one woman I fell in love with 25 years ago. If she just gave the word I would have laid down on railroad tracks from her. However she had a boyfriend, and I was content just to bask in her brilliant glory. One night one thing led to another and I was in heaven with a huge H. I mean she just completed me and I didn’t question it. When I told her how I felt she told me that was so very nice but she had a boyfriend and wasn’t about to leave him for me. So I understand. Sometimes someone just gets me on a level I can’t explain, and they always seem to be the ones that say no.