From my own experience of doing stuff like that, it usually goes awry.
Not necessarily “Into the Wild” awry, but just like I didn’t think it through, and now I’m having to knock on these strangers’ door in the middle of the night because I’ve run away from home and I have no clue how to get back and it’s really cold out etc.
To be honest, I’m more worried about that happening— me changing my mind— than I am about freezing or starving to death. To me, the implications of the former seem so much worse.
To me at least, those prospects look a lot worse up close.
I wasn’t really sure if you were considering suicide or just felt urgently restless. I used to walk all over the place to get away from my thoughts. They kept up, though 🙂
Yeah, not suicidal at the moment. I mean, it crosses my mind occasionally but that’s pretty much out of habit more than a genuine desire to die. If I can get rid of these imaginary f(r)iends, then I won’t have any need of killing myself. So I figure, why not try to do that instead?
Which prospects? Death or having to turn back and go home?
Running away, essentially. I don’t know whether I’d pack anything or not. But I know I’d be going into the marsh, while the tide is low. Maybe before the sun rises. Leave a note so they don’t suspect I was murdered.
I figure it’s a better alternative to killing myself.
Hazy: Yeah, I did. I think it was you who talked me down from it, actually. But now that winter’s rolling around, it keeps popping up in my head again.
Hmm. Might have been. So here is the real question, why do this? You’ve already stated you don’t want to die, it is you just want solitude? A break from your family? I used to disappear for hours in the woods and now that I look back it most likely was one of the things that kept me sane. I guess the import thing to think about is why are you doing this?
Dying of exposure is about the most painful way to go. I believe I stated that last time. I’m not saying not to do this. But I wouldn’t do it on impulse.
Basically, and I say basically because translating my thoughts into English is hard for me, running away would help me get rid of the voices and picture people. My home, and all other homes or institutions, are cluttering things. They keep me trapped with these demons. If I leave, then they’ll be purged from me. That’s about as close as I can come to explaining it.
I understand. I don’t want to do it on impulse either. Which is why I put it here. About the painful death: after the pain of my Geodon sickness, I’m not really scared of any pain, short of childbirth that is. But again, you’re right. It isn’t ideal.
yeah that’s right, you had some serious side effects from medications. This is a tough one. I’d love to say pack your bags and have at it. However, and this is a big however, there are a lot of adults involved in your life. They don’t tend to understand this compulsion, and although I do, there aren’t many out there that would buy into your demons leaving by disappearing into the marshes at night.
Have you ever looked for a friend to go camping with you? Someone who wouldn’t talk, but would just ensure you stay safe? Have you discussed with any of the professional adults in your life (like your psychiatrist) your need to go out into nature so the demons won’t follow you? There is a happy medium to this that doesn’t include you dying of exposure in the bogs.
That is a really good point. They know I suffer from frequent delusions, but there is no guarantee that everyone will be so understanding.
I know I told my therapist about this, but I’m not sure if she remembers. And I wish I could take a friend, but I doubt the demons would leave if I wasn’t alone. There probably is some other alternative though, and I’m open to them.
so you need to be alone in the woods for the demons to leave. Could you trick them say have your friend wear something that would camouflage them? Then you could go camping, be safe and the demons wouldn’t know you have someone with you. It’s a win all around, the adults know you are safe, you are safe because you have someone with you and the demons aren’t around because they think you are all alone.
Lol, that’s a pretty hilarious picture in my head, but it isn’t about what they know, it’s about what I know. If I know I’m not alone, and therefore not truly taking a leap of faith, they won’t leave. I need to be taking a risk with the hope that God will keep me safe. Like Peter stepping out of the boat.
I’m very sorry for smacking down everything you suggest; I’m not doing it on purpose. If you’re out of ideas, that’s okay.
Ooh, you could be on to something there. They lie to me constantly.
I was mostly going off of Biblical examples. Like Peter walking on water, Jesus, Elijah, and John the Baptist going off into the wilderness to draw close to The Spirit, Jesus telling people things like “Anyone who puts a hand to the plow and then looks back is not fit for the Kingdom of God”, etc. But my foundation could always be unsound.
Hmm. I don’t know. I’m no theologian mind you, but wouldn’t if follow that if a demon convinces you to kill yourself or to just put yourself in a situation where you die, then wouldn’t if follow that you are damned? I’m rusty with this. What do you think?
Trust me, I’m no theologian either. I’ve only been in the Faith for four years, and I have been starved of His Word for many, many long months. But I believe that if a demon tricks you into doing something that causes your death, it’ll only damn you if your intent was to die. If you just happen to die, there was no sin on your part. You were deceived, but you didn’t commit a sin. Sin is about one’s heart. If you accidentally hit someone with a car, you didn’t sin. If you drive your car into someone’s yard and kill them on purpose, you just committed murder.
@Whsiker: Fair enough. truthfully I left hell behind long ago. I don’t believe any of us is going to hell. Regardless of sin. Just my own personal belief though, and not really a very popular one.
I think starting out by talking with your psychiatrist and coming up with a game plan is a good first move.
Post all you want, no one is going to confront you about that. Sure, don’t spam us with pop music and advertisements 24/7, but if it’s something important (like all the posts you are have made) go ahead. You might consider telling your parents and psych tho, i mean, that’s why you’re going to the psych in the first place… and my guess is that most parents would rather deal with the problems and help, instead of just not knowing them (regardless of what their initial reaction might be).
Hey, you just told me to sort of F myself yesterday because i said i wouldn’t mail you a xmas gift, so i’d say we’re even, lol.
(nah, i meant like 24/7 and BAD pop music… there’s always awesome stuff like the rem arnold song… honestly, been listening to that one a lot ¡kike! watashi no na wa remu aaarnorudooo.. lalala)
Thanks for the reassurance. I’m so freaking worried about looking like an attention whore on here that I second guess every single post and comment I make.
I want to tell them. In fact, I just might. But I’m worried that if the urges still don’t go away, and I really do it, that they’ll know where to find me by what I told them. I’m really thinking about it now, though. I hate keeping secrets from them anyway. What am I thinking?
www. youtube. com/watch?v=p-AtlM2lW4A <- nope, those dogs are wonderful. Seriously, if someone tells me where i can get some baritone choir dogs like those, i'd get a couple.
Pretty interesting anime btw, i'm guessing it's a musical? some pretty good tunes, and some really bad hokey ones, lol. And the baritone dogs, can't get over the baritone dogs, hahah.
@mf: OMG you said it, baritone dogs with awesome eyebrows. Plus, if I was 19 again, I would totally rock that girl’s outfit. Life is so unfair. (shakes fist at God)
@HDS: I just checked the link you left a while ago (turns out my idea of “testing” some simple equipment like an xlr cable involves several hours of using it… i should get a work at QC, lol), and… jesuschrist, wth happened to SID? they used to be like this: www. youtube. com/watch?v=gpxyLpwRrsk <- which to me is awesome… they even had some jazz moments in that same album, even their FMA songs were awesome and now… *sigh* regular/cookie-cutter j-rock band.
FTR you could still rock that outfit, i mean, it looks like a pretty revealing one, but she's completely covered up, i do mean that in a good way btw (putting the patch before the wound, lol). That's the "good" thing about being a guy i guess? i could dress like remu arnorudo and just go grocery shipping and no one would notice. Unless i scream LISTEN! MY NAME IS REM ARNOLD! AND I WANT SOME BANANAS!, which sure, might sound like Inigo Montoya in a way, but… heh, whatever.
@Mf, yeah that was a little bit vanilla but I took a chance…
There are certain outfits I chance, unfortunately Lolita is no longer something I could pull off. Anyway, I live in Texas now, land of insane outfits.
www. youtube .com/watch?v=dueYnqixxS0 <- guitar player on the right. Male.
www. youtube .com/watch?v=oXyCORLeLd0 <- you also have hizaki, guitar player on red dress. Male.
www. youtube .com/watch?v=tK1ZpxTQL8k<- and you also have kaya, vocalist… male, lol. He's more of a queen than a lolita tho. Literally.
as bonus: found this one yesterday www. youtube .com/watch?v=OPU7DZKehCY … found it awesome. They've been touching on alice in wonderland concept for a while, but never went THAT far before.
If males nearing 40 can pull it off i don't see why anyone else on existence couldn't. And… yeah, i might have overdone it on the "here, have some music" thing, lol.
@HDS: well played, deep rabbit hole, you addressed all links at one line… color me impressed. As for ouka saki some ni keri (try saying that outloud and fast a couple of times! lol)… heh, feels. Sang that thing in front of 800-900 people, kimono, make up and umbrella included. Thank god there isn’t any record of it ever happening, haha.
@Mf, nope it rolls off the tongue rather well.
@Seesmith, we can’t see that link in our country however if you want to see this band in their full Alice in Wonderland getup click here; www. youtube. com/watch?v=ZN2cX2N-qD0 It’s an interview. They are so polite.
@HDS: Try with this one, LOL: www. youtube .com/watch?v=XLDtTzMmQrQ (seriously, i have problems even trying to say the songs name once, the song is awesome tho… such insanity).
These guys have such an elaborate wardrobe budget. Seriously if I didn’t want to blow my fucking brains out two months ago I would never have been introduced to musical acts such a D. Amazing. I just have them queued up for a while while family members play Call of Duty and blow each others brains out.
@HDS: I blame society. (i have no idea tbh), i guess i should get some sleep but… yeah, my favorite song by them (since i’ll be gone for a while, long, bad day tomorrow, lol) : www. youtube .com/watch?v=BxER9yQtHmM
Enjoy, or forever hate me for collapsing your computer with links! (or both!) nite 🙂
@Mf: Night, I’m going to have dreams of furries playing trumpets on stage while a rock band dressed like alice in wonderland plays in the forground. At one point the furries were hugging. I think it was hugging, but I can’t be sure.
@Mf: seriously, this makes me want to put on a furry costume and dance gleefully onstage. Unlike the other video which was dark and I’m pretty sure two of the furries started fornicating behind the drum set.
WF I know what you are talking about, except for the demon parts. ie, knowing you are truly alone to feel like you have some head room. For me it’s an only child thing. I like woods but I’ve also found calming solitude in large abandoned buildings.
But if people already know you are occasionally delusion prone and you disappear, you are going to freak everyone the hell out.
I wish there was a safe private cabin you could stay at with your parents permission. But for that to happen you’d have to tell them what’s going on in your mind and establish trust. Not easy.
I especially sympathise with you because I’ve been “on call” six days straight with my dad and srepmom and the walls are really closing in on me.
Ah ha! You need to become a professional house sitter!
Thank you for your understanding. It’s easy to feel like nobody does when you are an alleged psychotic. I’m sorry that you’re trapped in that situation though. 🙁 Best wishes.
You’re definitely right. I was thinking about that fact earlier. The only remedy I could think of was leaving a note detailing the situation and assuring them as much as I can in it. But even then, I’m not so naive as to believe that they won’t still freak out. Besides that, my words aren’t worth much, understandably.
The cabin thing sounds interesting. I don’t know if it’s possible though, since I’m a minor. But I’ve been wrong before, haven’t I?
Re: Minor. You would have to have a parent rent it for you… Then there’s the whole issue where if a parent leaves their child unattended they can get into trouble. Not that you are *really* a child.
Once again I get to pull out my old man’s voice reminiscing about how my mom would let me pitch my tent and spend the night in the backyard in the 60s.
You would happen to have a huge backyard would you? Do you have a relative with a huge backyard?
Given the semi-rural area in which I live, I might be able to arrange something like that.
I just hope it will achieve the same effect. Like I told Hazy, if I’m “comfortable”, the demons won’t leave me alone. I’m afraid safety might not be an option, or at least a guarantee. But I am extremely thankful for your advice and will think on everything you said.
That’s all I’d need to survive “running” away; and is exactly what I have in my rucksack sitting in my wardrobe. That being said, I’d love to run away with someone beside me. In situations like that I’m a real “Papa Bear” kinda guy, simply because I’m good at looking after folks and especially those in less than ideal circumstances.
All I can really offer is some advice for staying safe, but ideally you ought to stay put and give thought to other scenarios first. But either way: stay safe, and all the best.
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From my own experience of doing stuff like that, it usually goes awry.
Not necessarily “Into the Wild” awry, but just like I didn’t think it through, and now I’m having to knock on these strangers’ door in the middle of the night because I’ve run away from home and I have no clue how to get back and it’s really cold out etc.
That sucks. But I’m glad you’re alive.
To be honest, I’m more worried about that happening— me changing my mind— than I am about freezing or starving to death. To me, the implications of the former seem so much worse.
Thanks 🙂
To me at least, those prospects look a lot worse up close.
I wasn’t really sure if you were considering suicide or just felt urgently restless. I used to walk all over the place to get away from my thoughts. They kept up, though 🙂
Yeah, not suicidal at the moment. I mean, it crosses my mind occasionally but that’s pretty much out of habit more than a genuine desire to die. If I can get rid of these imaginary f(r)iends, then I won’t have any need of killing myself. So I figure, why not try to do that instead?
Which prospects? Death or having to turn back and go home?
I’m glad to hear that. Really.
Freezing/starving, I meant.
What would the “dashing” entail?
Running away, essentially. I don’t know whether I’d pack anything or not. But I know I’d be going into the marsh, while the tide is low. Maybe before the sun rises. Leave a note so they don’t suspect I was murdered.
I figure it’s a better alternative to killing myself.
Didn’t you make plans earlier to do this as well? BTW you do NOT post too much.
You sound sort of interesting. I’d be sad to see you go.
muspelhem: Thanks for the compliment! I appreciate it. 🙂 “Interesting” is definitely not the word my psychotherapist would choose, lol.
Oh, really? What would your therapist call you?
Hazy: Yeah, I did. I think it was you who talked me down from it, actually. But now that winter’s rolling around, it keeps popping up in my head again.
Hmm. Might have been. So here is the real question, why do this? You’ve already stated you don’t want to die, it is you just want solitude? A break from your family? I used to disappear for hours in the woods and now that I look back it most likely was one of the things that kept me sane. I guess the import thing to think about is why are you doing this?
Dying of exposure is about the most painful way to go. I believe I stated that last time. I’m not saying not to do this. But I wouldn’t do it on impulse.
Basically, and I say basically because translating my thoughts into English is hard for me, running away would help me get rid of the voices and picture people. My home, and all other homes or institutions, are cluttering things. They keep me trapped with these demons. If I leave, then they’ll be purged from me. That’s about as close as I can come to explaining it.
I understand. I don’t want to do it on impulse either. Which is why I put it here. About the painful death: after the pain of my Geodon sickness, I’m not really scared of any pain, short of childbirth that is. But again, you’re right. It isn’t ideal.
yeah that’s right, you had some serious side effects from medications. This is a tough one. I’d love to say pack your bags and have at it. However, and this is a big however, there are a lot of adults involved in your life. They don’t tend to understand this compulsion, and although I do, there aren’t many out there that would buy into your demons leaving by disappearing into the marshes at night.
Have you ever looked for a friend to go camping with you? Someone who wouldn’t talk, but would just ensure you stay safe? Have you discussed with any of the professional adults in your life (like your psychiatrist) your need to go out into nature so the demons won’t follow you? There is a happy medium to this that doesn’t include you dying of exposure in the bogs.
That is a really good point. They know I suffer from frequent delusions, but there is no guarantee that everyone will be so understanding.
I know I told my therapist about this, but I’m not sure if she remembers. And I wish I could take a friend, but I doubt the demons would leave if I wasn’t alone. There probably is some other alternative though, and I’m open to them.
so you need to be alone in the woods for the demons to leave. Could you trick them say have your friend wear something that would camouflage them? Then you could go camping, be safe and the demons wouldn’t know you have someone with you. It’s a win all around, the adults know you are safe, you are safe because you have someone with you and the demons aren’t around because they think you are all alone.
Lol, that’s a pretty hilarious picture in my head, but it isn’t about what they know, it’s about what I know. If I know I’m not alone, and therefore not truly taking a leap of faith, they won’t leave. I need to be taking a risk with the hope that God will keep me safe. Like Peter stepping out of the boat.
I’m very sorry for smacking down everything you suggest; I’m not doing it on purpose. If you’re out of ideas, that’s okay.
I am _never_ out of ideas.
So they don’t leave unless you take a dangerous leap of faith? How are you sure that one of the demons isn’t convincing you that you need to do this?
Ooh, you could be on to something there. They lie to me constantly.
I was mostly going off of Biblical examples. Like Peter walking on water, Jesus, Elijah, and John the Baptist going off into the wilderness to draw close to The Spirit, Jesus telling people things like “Anyone who puts a hand to the plow and then looks back is not fit for the Kingdom of God”, etc. But my foundation could always be unsound.
If you are going by biblical examples then you know demons lie to lure mankind into damnation. So there is that.
Oh yes. But I don’t know how this would damn me. Kill me, maybe. But damn me?
Hmm. I don’t know. I’m no theologian mind you, but wouldn’t if follow that if a demon convinces you to kill yourself or to just put yourself in a situation where you die, then wouldn’t if follow that you are damned? I’m rusty with this. What do you think?
Trust me, I’m no theologian either. I’ve only been in the Faith for four years, and I have been starved of His Word for many, many long months. But I believe that if a demon tricks you into doing something that causes your death, it’ll only damn you if your intent was to die. If you just happen to die, there was no sin on your part. You were deceived, but you didn’t commit a sin. Sin is about one’s heart. If you accidentally hit someone with a car, you didn’t sin. If you drive your car into someone’s yard and kill them on purpose, you just committed murder.
@Whsiker: Fair enough. truthfully I left hell behind long ago. I don’t believe any of us is going to hell. Regardless of sin. Just my own personal belief though, and not really a very popular one.
I think starting out by talking with your psychiatrist and coming up with a game plan is a good first move.
And thanks. I hope you’re right about that.
Post all you want, no one is going to confront you about that. Sure, don’t spam us with pop music and advertisements 24/7, but if it’s something important (like all the posts you are have made) go ahead. You might consider telling your parents and psych tho, i mean, that’s why you’re going to the psych in the first place… and my guess is that most parents would rather deal with the problems and help, instead of just not knowing them (regardless of what their initial reaction might be).
I thought you liked my spamming you with pop music. Shesh, you’re no friend.
Hey, you just told me to sort of F myself yesterday because i said i wouldn’t mail you a xmas gift, so i’d say we’re even, lol.
(nah, i meant like 24/7 and BAD pop music… there’s always awesome stuff like the rem arnold song… honestly, been listening to that one a lot ¡kike! watashi no na wa remu aaarnorudooo.. lalala)
Thanks for the reassurance. I’m so freaking worried about looking like an attention whore on here that I second guess every single post and comment I make.
I want to tell them. In fact, I just might. But I’m worried that if the urges still don’t go away, and I really do it, that they’ll know where to find me by what I told them. I’m really thinking about it now, though. I hate keeping secrets from them anyway. What am I thinking?
you are thinking it out…here on this thread. Which is excellent.
Thanks. I’m so thankful for your help, I really am.
LOL. Mf you are positively wonderful.
www. youtube. com/watch?v=p-AtlM2lW4A <- nope, those dogs are wonderful. Seriously, if someone tells me where i can get some baritone choir dogs like those, i'd get a couple.
Pretty interesting anime btw, i'm guessing it's a musical? some pretty good tunes, and some really bad hokey ones, lol. And the baritone dogs, can't get over the baritone dogs, hahah.
@mf: OMG you said it, baritone dogs with awesome eyebrows. Plus, if I was 19 again, I would totally rock that girl’s outfit. Life is so unfair. (shakes fist at God)
@HDS: I just checked the link you left a while ago (turns out my idea of “testing” some simple equipment like an xlr cable involves several hours of using it… i should get a work at QC, lol), and… jesuschrist, wth happened to SID? they used to be like this: www. youtube. com/watch?v=gpxyLpwRrsk <- which to me is awesome… they even had some jazz moments in that same album, even their FMA songs were awesome and now… *sigh* regular/cookie-cutter j-rock band.
FTR you could still rock that outfit, i mean, it looks like a pretty revealing one, but she's completely covered up, i do mean that in a good way btw (putting the patch before the wound, lol). That's the "good" thing about being a guy i guess? i could dress like remu arnorudo and just go grocery shipping and no one would notice. Unless i scream LISTEN! MY NAME IS REM ARNOLD! AND I WANT SOME BANANAS!, which sure, might sound like Inigo Montoya in a way, but… heh, whatever.
@Mf, yeah that was a little bit vanilla but I took a chance…
There are certain outfits I chance, unfortunately Lolita is no longer something I could pull off. Anyway, I live in Texas now, land of insane outfits.
If mana can still pull off lolita i don’t see why you couldn’t, lol.
Who’s mana?
www. youtube .com/watch?v=dueYnqixxS0 <- guitar player on the right. Male.
www. youtube .com/watch?v=oXyCORLeLd0 <- you also have hizaki, guitar player on red dress. Male.
www. youtube .com/watch?v=tK1ZpxTQL8k<- and you also have kaya, vocalist… male, lol. He's more of a queen than a lolita tho. Literally.
as bonus: found this one yesterday www. youtube .com/watch?v=OPU7DZKehCY … found it awesome. They've been touching on alice in wonderland concept for a while, but never went THAT far before.
If males nearing 40 can pull it off i don't see why anyone else on existence couldn't. And… yeah, i might have overdone it on the "here, have some music" thing, lol.
@mf: That is a deep rabbit hole my friend. Found this: www. youtube. com/watch?v=dEzOhw61Pjg Very good song.
“Content not available in your country.” WTF, this isn’t Mississippi!!!
@HDS: well played, deep rabbit hole, you addressed all links at one line… color me impressed. As for ouka saki some ni keri (try saying that outloud and fast a couple of times! lol)… heh, feels. Sang that thing in front of 800-900 people, kimono, make up and umbrella included. Thank god there isn’t any record of it ever happening, haha.
@SeeSmith: That’s what you get for living in middle earth. Pretty sure Sauron has a proxy set up.
@Mf, nope it rolls off the tongue rather well.
@Seesmith, we can’t see that link in our country however if you want to see this band in their full Alice in Wonderland getup click here; www. youtube. com/watch?v=ZN2cX2N-qD0 It’s an interview. They are so polite.
@HDS: who are you, a lizard? lol
@Mf I just wet my pants at that middle earth comment again. I have no idea why that cracks me the fuck up.
@mf: Japanese words just roll off the tongue easily is all.
@HDS: Try with this one, LOL: www. youtube .com/watch?v=XLDtTzMmQrQ (seriously, i have problems even trying to say the songs name once, the song is awesome tho… such insanity).
These guys have such an elaborate wardrobe budget. Seriously if I didn’t want to blow my fucking brains out two months ago I would never have been introduced to musical acts such a D. Amazing. I just have them queued up for a while while family members play Call of Duty and blow each others brains out.
There, for when COD ends it’s run: www. youtube. com/watch?v=pH0WamAcOsg&list=PLRcO-LWeIxh2YIItgLIleUWjmHQlA9LWI
If they ever come to south america i’ll surely go. Love the last one (snow white song).
Oh the entire concert. mm.
I’ve got like 10 web browser pages open flipping back and forth between them.
@mf: why are there furries on stage playing trumpets?
@HDS: I blame society. (i have no idea tbh), i guess i should get some sleep but… yeah, my favorite song by them (since i’ll be gone for a while, long, bad day tomorrow, lol) : www. youtube .com/watch?v=BxER9yQtHmM
Enjoy, or forever hate me for collapsing your computer with links! (or both!) nite 🙂
@Mf: Night, I’m going to have dreams of furries playing trumpets on stage while a rock band dressed like alice in wonderland plays in the forground. At one point the furries were hugging. I think it was hugging, but I can’t be sure.
It was oddly titillating.
@HDS: I honestly should have saved this for other time but… what the hell: www. youtube .com/watch?v=AOOCVqMGQ4E
happy nightmares!
@Mf: seriously, this makes me want to put on a furry costume and dance gleefully onstage. Unlike the other video which was dark and I’m pretty sure two of the furries started fornicating behind the drum set.
I thought Shelob ate all her babies, MF.
WF I know what you are talking about, except for the demon parts. ie, knowing you are truly alone to feel like you have some head room. For me it’s an only child thing. I like woods but I’ve also found calming solitude in large abandoned buildings.
But if people already know you are occasionally delusion prone and you disappear, you are going to freak everyone the hell out.
I wish there was a safe private cabin you could stay at with your parents permission. But for that to happen you’d have to tell them what’s going on in your mind and establish trust. Not easy.
I especially sympathise with you because I’ve been “on call” six days straight with my dad and srepmom and the walls are really closing in on me.
Ah ha! You need to become a professional house sitter!
Thank you for your understanding. It’s easy to feel like nobody does when you are an alleged psychotic. I’m sorry that you’re trapped in that situation though. 🙁 Best wishes.
You’re definitely right. I was thinking about that fact earlier. The only remedy I could think of was leaving a note detailing the situation and assuring them as much as I can in it. But even then, I’m not so naive as to believe that they won’t still freak out. Besides that, my words aren’t worth much, understandably.
The cabin thing sounds interesting. I don’t know if it’s possible though, since I’m a minor. But I’ve been wrong before, haven’t I?
Re: Minor. You would have to have a parent rent it for you… Then there’s the whole issue where if a parent leaves their child unattended they can get into trouble. Not that you are *really* a child.
Once again I get to pull out my old man’s voice reminiscing about how my mom would let me pitch my tent and spend the night in the backyard in the 60s.
You would happen to have a huge backyard would you? Do you have a relative with a huge backyard?
Well, whatever you chose to do, be safe.
Given the semi-rural area in which I live, I might be able to arrange something like that.
I just hope it will achieve the same effect. Like I told Hazy, if I’m “comfortable”, the demons won’t leave me alone. I’m afraid safety might not be an option, or at least a guarantee. But I am extremely thankful for your advice and will think on everything you said.
If you can’t see recognizable lights on houses and the moon isn’t full, even the smallest woods loom dangerously large.
You want a sense of danger? Don’t bring a phone or flashlight. Stumbling in the dark is pretty much the same wherever you go. Except grand canyon!
You make a good point. I was mostly referring to the cabin, though. But still, you have a point.
FW2S — Food. Warmth. Weapons. Shelter.
That’s all I’d need to survive “running” away; and is exactly what I have in my rucksack sitting in my wardrobe. That being said, I’d love to run away with someone beside me. In situations like that I’m a real “Papa Bear” kinda guy, simply because I’m good at looking after folks and especially those in less than ideal circumstances.
All I can really offer is some advice for staying safe, but ideally you ought to stay put and give thought to other scenarios first. But either way: stay safe, and all the best.