Today was really hard . I had to get through work without breaking down . But I think my sadness turned into anger today . I work at a smoothie bar/wrap place and I was trying to make a wrap and the tortilla kept breaking and so I threw it at the wall. I was so fustrated . And it was so busy. I hate serving people . Everyone is always in a hurry. I can’t wait to finish my dental assisting class so I can get a real job.
I wish life wasn’t so hard for me . I wish I had it easier . But I feel like I make it harder in a sense. I just wish the days were longer too . Time is going by so fast and I feel like my life is being wasted away, & I feel like I shouldn’t feel this way because I’m only 18. I wonder what my 30’s or even 60’s will feel like . I want every second of my life to matter.
i hate when people say my life will be better when I get out of college and go into the real world, maybe in 5 years I’ll be happier. But none of that matters. I want to be happy now . I want to find joy while I’m young. Because I know as I grow up even more the fun and games will have to stop.
I wish I could lay in bed forever. It’s the only place that I feel safe. But I also shed a lot of tears here. I can’t wait to move from my family’s house . I’d rather feel fully alone than feel like I’m being ignored or not payed attention to .
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The best thing about those early jobs in life is that they help you appreciate it more each time you get a better job. And of course, they give you stories to tell your children and grandchildren (when you get to that point).
I took my time going through college (5yrs) because I too expected that life would suck after I graduated. Turns out, in looking back, I’d have to say it is just different, not really worse. You have more freedom (maybe too much) without the restrictions of campus & family life. Freedom can of course be a bad thing, if misused.
Lying in bed is nice too, but everything gets old. I’ve been unemployed for several months, so I’ve spent too much time doing just that.