Lately I have had insomnia (again). I mean I always liked not sleeping at night, guess I just liked the quiteness and tranquil aspect about it.
Yet too much crazy things are happening in my life. Do you guys ever feel like that? How reality seems stranger than fiction, and not at all how like it used to be when you were a kid. I think I am going insane, or maybe I already am…
I don’t know why crazy things are always happening in my life. It’s more than just a coincidence. Like how my life panned out. It goes all the way to my grandfather, my father, things happening here. My experiences, the people I met. Everything.
It’s funny though, I really want someone I can talk to who can understand me, yet most people probably won’t, and if they do. I am not exactly sure if they’re going to be good to know and befriend. I know it seems vague, but I am not sure if I am ready to come out with it online. It is a long story, and some of it is personal.
I don’t know what to do… Does anyone else feel like this?
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I feel the same about night sometimes.
I think a lot of people would understand you. I don’t know what your story is, but I think it’s usually better to take that risk of getting to know people. Sometimes people aren’t how you thought and you’re not compatible, but you start to recognise when you should let people go, and it gets easier to do over time.
What crazy things are happening?
Hey Trix, I wish I can tell you, but I don’t exactly feel comfortable online… Yet I might do so if I really need to vent one of these days.
I am not sure, it’s not like I’ve always been a loner, but lately, yeah I don’t think people will understand. Or even if I open up, they don’t exactly know of the things I am talking about.
Even meeting girls is a pain, cause I think I might end up being not good for them, and they just might become sad because of me.
if you cant sleep at night try getting out and exercising. Walk until your tired or go to the gym or something then you will tire yourself out.
I used to work out, but after I crashed my car… Yeah now I don’t. It would be great if I could though.
I can really understand what you feel like and as Trix already mentioned, I guess many can do so. I feel practically everyday more or less insane and feel full of grief. I also always want to tell someone, but well, I just haven’t got any person I could tell it. So I also posted a part of my story online, and yeah it helped at least a bit, I guess. I would really recommend you telling someone and if there’s just no one you can imagine, then online is probably also a good way.
thx for your input Hope, I guess I will go out and come out with it online, as I really don’t have a person… Not right now though, maybe the next night when I feel like it.