Halloween sucked. Considering none of my friends wanted to hang out with me and I was left at home with no one to talk to. Now this Christmas I will be suffering under the same situation but with more sleepless nights and unforgiving depression than ever before. My family is going to Disney, the most happiest place on earth or so when it’s with those you love and care about you (my definition of it). Another vacation ruined by our “family friends” and my family’s lack of consideration for how I feel. Another anxiety driven plane ride after the other. “You’ll understand it when we get there”, my father told me this morning without letting me speak my mind. “It’s better if you just shut the fu** up and do as I say”. It’s always interruption, interruption, interruption with him. He only seems to care for himself. On the other hand, this family I’m going with is no family to me. They are religious but uncaring to a sad soul. Especially their daughters. They don’t accociate with me because I’m quiet and different than my sisters. I hate them, I really do, and I’m cutting my ties defenitly with that family as well as my own. It’s a hard decision to cut the connect wbut I feel it’s nessisary to be done to heal the wounds my parents have left in my heart all these years.
If you have come this far then I thank you, it means a lot to know someone is reading this.
I hope the rest of you have a better holiday than I will be having.
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I get this. I wish I didn’t but I do and I know exactly how shitty this feels. Im here if you ever want to talk
Hii, i did, i’ve read it. I feel sorry for you i really do, i wish i could do something for you.
I can tell you that ill have, unfortunately, the worst Christmas i ever had in my life aswell but ill be not alone i guess.
What i can do is, im always able to talk about the problems or anything else ( company by texting, and yes i do have friends, but my deepest company is a friend that lives 100km way from me so i know that texting helps a bit), if u want to.
Just lemme know.