Little To No Hope Now

I had a very stressed week this week. With everything going on its made me feel more depressed than ever. I was hoping today would be different. My friend and I kind of planned on meeting up after work a few hours ago, but after I got a message saying he couldn’t stay. He had left for his other friends. My heart literally shattered when I read the message (and what made it worse is my feelings I have for him..). I could not believe it. I thought hanging out with him would raise my spirits, make me feel so much better. But no. He had gone. I sat in mcdonalds crying for a half hour until my mother picked me up. I’m now at home locked in my bedroom wondering what to do. I don’t want to talk to him, or see him… He’s just another “friend” who let me down..