So I got the job, I graduated, I did it. Throughout all the torture of having those really bad lows. And it just doesn’t get better, even if you get a good salary, even if you work in your field, able to pay back on loans and debts and are financially solvent, it just doesn’t get better. I lost my phone, I am still with the person that irritates my very being. My apartment looks like a hoarder’s, I have packed boxes from 6 months ago sprawled around. I’m starting a new job. I’m not even sure if it’s the right decision or if I am committing career suicide. The friend I was supposed to be having drinks with I can’t call since I have no phone and apparently he has no facebook, so it’ll just look like I bailed out with no explanation. And these relationships are important since everyone is friends with everyone and the people you know are the ones who will help your career, push along your resume, etc. I can’t ask my boyfriend for career advice because he has no working experience with corporate jobs. I feel like I need to check myself into an outpatient program. But how I would pay for that I don’t know, since I’ll be off my company insurance in a week to start this job. There is a monstrous mosquito that is trying to eat me and there are flies taking over the apartment, I feel like it’s prophetic, they could just tell my dead body is reeking up this place.
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I just have to ask: are you living in my house, because is sounds like you described me house. Especially the boxes, flies, mosquitoes and smell of dead bodies.
well maybe no so much the dead bodies, but there be hoarders here, clearly hoarder.
Career suicide hu? how are you committing career suicide? I’m really interested.
Hey Hazy, thanks haha, that actually cheered me up a little bit. Ahaha seriously I just wish my life was somewhat together, in some way. Yes the box situation is a little out of control and I keep getting into fights with my guy about it. It’s gotten to the point where it’s seriously just out of control. I work at a small fashion company, and I’m switching jobs to be with a bigger company with more brand recognition. I’m fearful that when I switch I will get black listed by my former boss and a lot of companies will not be available to me. Also it’s a different field so my resume won’t look focused. But they are offering a bigger salary, my current job is trying to counter offer, but the people there already resent me and there’s no room for growth since it’s so small.
Where are these flies coming from though? Seriously, I keep throwing out food and trash and they come back by the droves.
To be more specific, I am an associate technical designer, and I currently work with a womenswear company, very small, but am switching to intimate apparel for a slight raise with a bigger company, which means I need to learn a whole lot, almost like a different species but closely related. I’m worried my colleagues will be frustrated with me if I don’t catch on quickly enough. I also feel like I might be ruining my resume by tunneling myself in to such a niche skill set. My friend is the one who put me up for the job, and she knows I have some working knowledge in intimates, but I am worried about putting myself into another crazy situation where we have an emotionally tumultuous creative director.
If they are tiny, I am betting the garbage disposal. I will hear buzzing and look behind a curtain and there will be 25 or so house flies that seemed to appear over night. I still haven’t figured that one out. It feels like Amityville Horror around here sometimes.
I don’t know much about the fashion industry. I do know that people have to do what is best for their personal growth. If you feel that going to a bigger company will allow you more personal growth than I think that is a good move. I recently left a job with a lot of prestige for a position that pays the same but is much lower in the ranks and has a lot less responsibility because it offers a great deal of growth for me. I felt like I might have been committing career suicide as well, but I’ve been here a year now and I see it was the right move even if occasionally I crave the attention the last job gave me.
Who knows maybe after a year your old boss will be trying to poach you from this company like mine is trying to do. I counter offered her a crazy amount of money. I’ll be shocked if I hear back, but hell I only live once? I figure I can always kill myself next week if it all implodes on me, after all I am sitting here chatting on a suicide site right?
I don’t know, that sounds exciting. Careers no longer hinge upon doing one thing only in a lifetime. People are expected to switch and become generalists in this world. I went from QA to Data Analyst. Right now I’m more of a generalist and taught myself html and VB so I am even more of a generalist. It sounds like you are peeking over the cliff of an amazing career. I say leap, nothing to lose.
Haha I guess with that kind of thinking in mind, worst case scenario we just leave a mess for everyone else to clean up. I really appreciate the clarity of your response and sense of humor. Hearing that personal growth is actually a big factor, I think I’ll see where it goes. Finding another job is never that easy though… oh well, in that case I really will just go off myself. Best of luck to us both on the fly situation. I really appreciate it, I’ll sign off for now 🙂