I honestly don’t know. I feel like I’m losing my friends all over. I try to help a few friends struggling with school and stuff but I still feel worthless. It’s worse when they make fun of me for trying to help. “This isn’t you” blah blah
I even told them it’s because you don’t really know me and they just give me this look like I’m crazy. I absolutely hate it when they compare me to someone bad. My mom isn’t the greatest mom and she’s never home. The other day a so called friend said I’ll end up just like her leaving her kid alone half the time and not caring. I don’t know if she’s being completely rude or oblivious but it hurts when she says that.
I honestly thought I was getting better too. Testing is coming up within the next two weeks and I don’t understand half of my classes. It’s like no one cares about me anymore. It’s really starting to hurt. I get headaches every day from over thinking. Sometimes I think I should just give up. I’m better off alone or dead.
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So I decided to post or do a draft every time I’m down. So here’s to the second post.
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Hi younggods, I’m sorry to hear that you’re feeling so down, but you sound like a good and caring person. Don’t worry, people do care about you, but a lot of people just have a hard time saying it sometimes. Friends can be mean, and not even realize that they are being hurtful. Spend time studying for your tests. Maybe start a study group with your friends and help each other do well. 🙂
Thank you so much. It honestly feels a lot better when someone can hear/read some things I’m going through. Maybe I’ll try that study group, thanks.
Hey youngGods! Sure we read it and we care about. Thats true, sometimes, friends are just not used to lead with stuff, they just dont take things to serious you know, they try to keep it fun . its better if u can talk to someone in private or you can talk over here.
But yeh, studie for your thing, set up ur life.
It sounds like you are more mature and deep than your friends so I think you have to just accept that and try and rise above the thoughtless things they say. That is what they are, thoughtless. They haven’t realised yet that people can change and don’t realise how much you think about and analyse everything. They are lucky to have you. Hopefully once the test period is over you will have a lot less stress. Right now that test stress is distorting everything. Try and study if you can though, pro-active is better than floundering and worrying. Stay strong, you can get through it all.