Tomorrow I go back to college. I haven’t done any of the work. Despite what my mum has been saying, it’s not due to me being lazy. I haven’t been able to concentrated, and I’ve wasted entire days spacing out and such (although a few people have told me it’s possibly depersonalisation or something -they have it themselves).
I’m not ready to go back to college, I couldn’t cope with daily life without the added pressure of college work. And I’m terrified of what my tutor will say about the work. It’s not like I can go up to her and be honest, saying ‘oh, hey, I couldn’t do your work because I just had too many emotional/mental breakdowns to count over Christmas, I sabotaged friendships because of irrantioal thinking that they hated me when they didn’t reply, I’m reaching the breaking point between me and my family, and I have been suffering terribly with hallucinations/delusions/paranoia/anxiety/emotions in general/etcetera.’
I don’t know what to do. I’m seriously considering dropping out of college; everything is overwhelming again.