I am trying to keep it together and not express anything that would show how angry and sad I am all the time. I feel like I have terrible thoughts and urges but Im trying to keep it all inside because I dont want to hurt anyone. Today during dinner my roomates were having a conversation and I was thinking I wish I could participate better. I wish I could have a proper conversation and be engaged like normal people are. Instead I was just playing with my napkin. I eventually started ripping and tearing it. They pointed out, you know psychopaths do that, then jokingly one whispered into the others ear: I think he is a psychopath.
Wish I wasnt so transparent 🙁
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I don’t know why tearing your napkin would make you a psychopath…? Your roommates sound like they’re trying to get your worked up. I’ve been obsessing lately over how I feel like I’m a psychopath and it’s super depressing. I guess my hope would be that a true psychopath wouldn’t care that they are one or not, so maybe being upset by that is a good sign in a way. Try not to let them get to you, although I know that’s much easier said than done. Do you have any way you can distract yourself from them right now?
Your not a psycho path. You have to learn in life that some really insecure people can say really harsh words sometimes. But just because they say it doesn’t mean that its true. People can be mean with their choice of words sometimes…. and often they don’t really even mean it.
Dont worry about the comments that people make under their breath. You are not crazy. You just have some anger issues and emotional issues and well. You are NOT alone in that. Many people have anger issues and most people have emotional issues as well. Your fine. Dont let those stupid comments effect you.
Oh by the way anybody who would call you a psychopath is NOT YOUR FRIEND. Stay away from people like that!!
They don’t even know what a psychopath is like and most likely they were just kidding, but it was still pretty inconsiderate of them to say stuff like that. Trust me, if you were a psychopath they’d think you’re awesome (by manipulation) or they’d be chopped down in your basement after doing those “jokes”. Like PhantomCitizen43 says above: don’t let their stupid comments affect you.
Thank you so much for your wonderful words. The issue is that I do want to cause havoc and destroy something a lot of times, I don’t though since I can control myself but it makes me more out of it, timid and anxious
Ar yeah, I checked DSM-V, and napkin-tearing is one of the core symptoms of psychopathy.
You can see why society would want to keep that sort of anti-social behaviour in check.
They have no idea what a psychopath is. I was married to one for 9 years. You do not fit the bill. I’d be happy to introduce them to my ex though….they will really like him, until he robs them and tries to kill them.
Well shit, I’d say F'” that person, and move on. Who’s to say their moronic self even knows what their talking about. Especially if they we’re raised to know right from wrong and have the common decencey to keep their mouths shut if they ain’t got no respect. For you.. Their friend or for themselves.. If you can.. I know its hard, heck it took me a long time but, I would humor them with maybe.. acknowleding them from time to time but sort of for yourself x- the shit out of them from your life.. And trust better ppl out there that will come along to be friends with. That kind of rubbed me the wrong way.. But thats me , thats what i would do. . i had to before with friends that I wanted to be friends with. Friends that I wanted to be brothers with.