Today is a day when the (physical) pain just won’t go away.
I’ve taken six doses of Tramadol in the past 24 hours and the hurt is still there.
(I don’t take Tramadol every day; it’s reserved for the worst days–like this– when the pain is severe.)
I took it on top of my other meds, so my whole brain is probably one big circus sideshow right now.
My head is blurry, I can hardly think, and I have spent the entire day in bed. Soon I will go back to sleep, again, if my body will let me.
I apologize if my comments on your posts have sounded weird today. I just am having trouble thinking how to say things, and I suspect some of my sentences have sounded like a lemming on crack.
Chronic pain and disability are rotten things.
Even on a good day, I can barely walk. When I do go outside, I either have to use canes, or a walker/wheelchair. And I always have to wear the leg braces. I’d never get very far without those. It’s a weird thing to say, but I’m grateful for the canes/walker/wheelchair/braces, because without them I would have to spend the majority of my life stuck at home in bed, alone with no one to take care of me. I could die and it would take people a long time to realize I was gone.
I am hoping that when I wake up tomorrow, things will be different.
Let me dream.
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I hope today the pain isnt as bad as it was yesterday. 🙁 ive never suffered physical pain other than a temporary injury or illness or abuse, the pain has always left at some point. But i do know constant emotional pain. I know its different though. So i dont really know what youre going through. But i hope today is better for you.
A lemming on crack-that is funny. I can just see it!! I am sorry for your pain, but you seem to still have your sense of humor which is important. As darklytwisted said– I hope today is better for you.
I’m with you to some degree on this. Being a member of the chronic pain society I know better than to compare pain levels, but I too lately have been maxing out my tramadol intake. It’s tough just getting up the motivation to get out of bed. You’re doing it, though. Keep on going and don’t let it get the best of you. You’ve got this far and it’s not going to beat you now.