I spend so much time daydreaming it’s like I live another life inside my head. I have daydreamed for as long as I can remember, all through primary school and I’m now in High school (15 years old). It has never bothered me that much in the past, I mean it would keep me from missing a lot in class but I never thought it was really that bad – until now. Now I just feel like I have another life inside my head, at first it didn’t cross my mind but now it’s stuffing up my head. I want it all to stop, I can’t live like this. Not all the things I think about are bad, some are me just having friends that are there for me, freedom; which I would love to have in real life but its starting to become to much. Other thoughts are torture (Me getting tortured and me torturing other people), murder or suicide also etc.
I have depression along with this but depression feels different, They may well be related but this is a whole other problem and I feel so sick and stuffed up in the head because or it.
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There is absolutely a solution for you. Medicine has helped me a lot with depression and intrusive thoughts (recurring thoughts that I don’t want to be thinking about, like you’re having.) I also see a therapist which is extremely helpful. Is there a counseling office at your school? There’s also a special kind of therapist called a CBT – Cognitive Behavioral Therapist. They work specifically to help you deal with recurring thoughts that you don’t want to have. If the psychologist at your school doesn’t specialize in CBT, if you have health insurance you can look for therapists who take your insurance. That would mean that you would have a copay (maybe $20 per therapy session) and you can get reimbursed from your insurance, so it’s basically free.
Medicine and therapy combined do wonders. Therapy is always confidential unless your therapist hears you say that you or another person is in danger. There is absolutely a solution. You will be ok.
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I know exactly how you feel. I daydreamer constantly through classes. I would think about something and before I knew it 10 mins, 30 mins, an hour would go by. It’s scary losing time like that.
I’ve often had weird dreams where I’ve killed my dogs or something twisted like that. But like you said, not all of it is bad.
I was wondering, do you read a lot? I love to read but I can’t anymore because I keep comparing my life to the fictional ones I read about and it’s beyond depressing. After I finish with one, I mope around for about two weeks before I feel normal.
But anyways, my advise to you would be to write about what you dream about. Write everyday if you have to. That’s what I’ve been doing and it’s helped tremendously. Getting everything out of my head and onto paper is a lot less stressful than keeping it in.
I’m not saying medication won’t work, it might. For me, when I took medicine I was tired all of the time. I would sleep my life away. But I’ve been writing since I was about your age, now 22.
I hope this helps.