Tired

I’m exhausted, but I can’t sleep. I won’t sleep. I’ve had barely any sleep this past week. It’s getting bad again. I’ve slept 2 nights (Monday and Wednesday , I think) for about 4/5 hours each night, and the hours weren’t consistent. I’ll wake up in the middle of the night, with falling back asleep awful. But despite this sleep deprivation, I need to stay awake. I need to watch in the night for them. They’re in my room constantly. Watching me. I need to stay awake so they don’t get me. The only time I can sleep is when they’re not there – which is obviously rare due to my lack of sleep. I can’t focus on anything. I can’t even stand up for too long without going dizzy. The only thing keeping me awake is my fear. Everything hurts and aches, and my paranoia is worse. I’m at my weakest, and it’s the perfect time for the Others to get me. No doubt they know it. They’re going to get me. So are the demons.