thank you.. i should have just said, “the other day i weighed my breasts to see how much they would cost to post..too much for second delibery, if you get what i mean.”
” I need to be strung up and bled like a pig.” Why? why not just “I need to die peacefully” what’s all this awww! stick a fucking stake in my heart stuff? π jk we all have though days.
You have never seemed insincere on here. I’ll just offer this: I think you’ll know when you’re in the company of the right people, because it will make you happy. Not like a commercial, but happier than with people you’re uncomfortable around. I’m all for being patient and giving people passes, but on the other hand, there’s no point in contorting yourself to get along with someone who doesn’t really value you anyway, but is just using you to score points or to leech off.
I wish we didn’t have bodies, or more apt, that we were all squirrels or ducks, maybe crayfish.. I doubt any living creature in any phylum ever wasted a single moment considering self-worth based on appearance alone other than humans. But the thing to remember is often times even the most classically deemed “beautiful” people carry the highest insecurities. It’s all so fucked.
I’m a Christian, so I believe that one day we won’t have bodies. But until then I must struggle against mine.
And I would totally love to be a crayfish. Those little buggers are awesome. I used to catch them when I was younger; they made worthy opponents.
It is all fucked. When I used to be pretty I hated myself. Now that I’m ugly again, I still do.
A head full of memories of vicious bullying based on my appearance surely doesn’t help, either. I know it’s pathetic as fuck, but I can still hear their taunts ringing in my ears.
I hate how much of a psychological hold some of those people still have on me.
One of themβ a girlβ goes to my same highschool. She’s always gone to my same schools. Followed me since elem. Anyway, last semester we had anatomy together. And for whatever reason, my teacher just so happens to make us fucking LAB PARTNERS for weeks on end. I was practically pissing myself the entire time. Her voice is enough to turn my blood to iceβ still, after years!
And the worst part? She probably doesn’t even remember the hell she used to put me through. How she used to send me home to my parents, sobbing and begging to be homeschooled. Begging to be dead.
And this other old bully of mine…he used to put me through the wringer, alright. He was much older than me when we met, and I’m about 99.999% certain he had some SERIOUS psychological issues. Almost beat me unconscious this one time, and nobody did shit about it. I used to have nightmares about him well past an acceptable age. He’s likely in his mid-twenties by now, and probably doesn’t even remember my name. I think I’ll always remember his name, though, and that is fucking sad. No wonder I hate myself.
whiskered-fish, kind of like when i go to the dentist? yeah drill that mother fxxxxxx yeah! smoke and teeth shit flying everywhere! yeah yeah make it hurt!!! because i know your helping me?? jk again, π you shouldn’t hate yourself we make mistakes, OK sometimes i do and say to myself Rocketman you big dummy!!!! but i get over it you should too!
Yeesh, as much of a masochist as I am, I don’t think I will ever feel anything but abject terror and despair at the thought of a dentist visit. Uggghhh.
Anyway thanks rocketman. Your optimism is almost infectious.
Whiskered Fish. You been here for me since I joined… I’m not going to bull shit and say your beautiful. I don’t know. I DO KNOW, you got a stellar personality. a huge heart, and a good dose of intelligence. So, that’s pretty awesome in my book. Regardless of how you look, we all end up saggy wrinkled with hair growing places we didn’t think possible.
Beauty fades, new personality doesn’t just sprout.
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We are all beautiful in our own way not the way telly and mags tell us we should be.
Hugs
Thanks.
Your soul is one fire.. Your spirit is undesirable.. Your body is but the eggshell dont let it make you crack
omg UNDENIABLE!!!
Lol, no worries.
Beautifully put even with auto correct. Lol. Love! Here is to the beautiful souls of SP
thank you.. i should have just said, “the other day i weighed my breasts to see how much they would cost to post..too much for second delibery, if you get what i mean.”
I was out at the pub when I read this, I busted out laughing. The barkeep was ready to cut me off. π
As you choked on your lager… You should have just told the barkeep.. THRUST..THRUST..THRUST.. GOOD LORD THAT WAS MOIST…and walked out!
ROTFLAMO….
“I have to hold them when running.”
ha ha… geriatric streaming dominoes
lol check that.. “geriatric screaming dominos
…i googled geriatric screaming dominos.
My life is never going to be the same, isnt it?.
I am so, so curious. And concerned.
you guys have got to see the show Miranda it is bloody hilarious
That last sentence is interesting. I like it. Thank you.
You are welcome
” I need to be strung up and bled like a pig.” Why? why not just “I need to die peacefully” what’s all this awww! stick a fucking stake in my heart stuff? π jk we all have though days.
No, rocketman, you make a good point. I honestly don’t know what I’m always so disgustingly violent.
To answer your question, I often hate myself. A lot. And if you hate someone that passionately, you want them to die slowly. To suffer.
omg.. spell check UNDENIABLE!!!
Wtf whiskered?
You’re a beautiful person, honestly. I know those days, but guess what: you are wrong. You are great and even if you can’t see it, others can.
I’m sorry mus. Thank you for the reality check. I will try my hardest to convince myself of that.
That is good, young padawan π
Also, I hope you can maybe hang out with some good people irl to make you realise that you matter and are a valuable person.
That sounds like a really good idea. I hope I can find people like that.
Everybody around me seems so insincere. Maybe it’s just me. It has to be.
You have never seemed insincere on here. I’ll just offer this: I think you’ll know when you’re in the company of the right people, because it will make you happy. Not like a commercial, but happier than with people you’re uncomfortable around. I’m all for being patient and giving people passes, but on the other hand, there’s no point in contorting yourself to get along with someone who doesn’t really value you anyway, but is just using you to score points or to leech off.
Oh, no, I don’t mean that I’m insincere, I mean that I’m paranoid and see everyone around me as being insincere.
Anyway, that is some very welcome advice. Thank you. You always seem to know what to say to me.
I wish we didn’t have bodies, or more apt, that we were all squirrels or ducks, maybe crayfish.. I doubt any living creature in any phylum ever wasted a single moment considering self-worth based on appearance alone other than humans. But the thing to remember is often times even the most classically deemed “beautiful” people carry the highest insecurities. It’s all so fucked.
I’m a Christian, so I believe that one day we won’t have bodies. But until then I must struggle against mine.
And I would totally love to be a crayfish. Those little buggers are awesome. I used to catch them when I was younger; they made worthy opponents.
It is all fucked. When I used to be pretty I hated myself. Now that I’m ugly again, I still do.
A head full of memories of vicious bullying based on my appearance surely doesn’t help, either. I know it’s pathetic as fuck, but I can still hear their taunts ringing in my ears.
btw i am of The way aΕ‘ well
You are? That’s awesome. Nice to hear, brother. π
I hate how much of a psychological hold some of those people still have on me.
One of themβ a girlβ goes to my same highschool. She’s always gone to my same schools. Followed me since elem. Anyway, last semester we had anatomy together. And for whatever reason, my teacher just so happens to make us fucking LAB PARTNERS for weeks on end. I was practically pissing myself the entire time. Her voice is enough to turn my blood to iceβ still, after years!
And the worst part? She probably doesn’t even remember the hell she used to put me through. How she used to send me home to my parents, sobbing and begging to be homeschooled. Begging to be dead.
And this other old bully of mine…he used to put me through the wringer, alright. He was much older than me when we met, and I’m about 99.999% certain he had some SERIOUS psychological issues. Almost beat me unconscious this one time, and nobody did shit about it. I used to have nightmares about him well past an acceptable age. He’s likely in his mid-twenties by now, and probably doesn’t even remember my name. I think I’ll always remember his name, though, and that is fucking sad. No wonder I hate myself.
whiskered-fish, kind of like when i go to the dentist? yeah drill that mother fxxxxxx yeah! smoke and teeth shit flying everywhere! yeah yeah make it hurt!!! because i know your helping me?? jk again, π you shouldn’t hate yourself we make mistakes, OK sometimes i do and say to myself Rocketman you big dummy!!!! but i get over it you should too!
Yeesh, as much of a masochist as I am, I don’t think I will ever feel anything but abject terror and despair at the thought of a dentist visit. Uggghhh.
Anyway thanks rocketman. Your optimism is almost infectious.
Whiskered Fish. You been here for me since I joined… I’m not going to bull shit and say your beautiful. I don’t know. I DO KNOW, you got a stellar personality. a huge heart, and a good dose of intelligence. So, that’s pretty awesome in my book. Regardless of how you look, we all end up saggy wrinkled with hair growing places we didn’t think possible.
Beauty fades, new personality doesn’t just sprout.
Thanks AO. I needed to hear that, and I’m so touched to know that you guys feel that way. Wow.
We got yo back sis..nuttin but ma? gangsta luv fo ya up in dis biotch…