i have had the day from hell. sexual abuse, alone, no family, saw my mother, her denial of what my father did to me, i ended the day with loud music in my earbuds and finished off the brandy. it helped. it numbed. im not a drinker but sometimes i do. what csa has done to me is not pretty, i am always suffering, i want to find a painless way to say goodbye wont think of god, wont serve the devil, either, cant see her anymore, life so painful, nobody knows, every day, ive had enough of being so alone, nobody knows, no, nobody
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Silvermoon,
Yours is a huge burden, but it’s not yours to carry. You will find your way out of this. There is a way out.
Out is the word, I hope you can leave home. The sooner the better.
You matter, be strong
Sorry,
Most of the most serious posts are always the most difficult to support.
Hope my words won’t bother you
My first post has also the titel ‘alone’
I wrote about that I’m lonely, have no friends and sexual abuse as well.
It’s for 5 years now.
I can’t help you, I wish I could but
I can tell you that you are not alone.
I know that horrible feeling.
I hope, some day everything is different.
I’m looking forward to read new posts about you and your life.
Stay strong, you are not alone!