I’m sorry

Every human makes “mistakes” or does things they wish they didn’t. It’s a normal part of life. When a person succeeds at something it usually comes after they have fucked up a hundred times. If you’re not fucking up then you’re not really living. You say “I got myself here and I should be able to get myself out”. I’m not sure what your situation is but you do have some control over what happens next. You can’t undo the past but u can pick yourself up, dust yourself off and keep on taking risks (aka living life). I hope you get through this and feel better soon. Hugs.