So sunday after church. I had a nervous breack down .why a nervous break down well ill tell you.
A family freind tells me wonderful thing she spoke to my mom and mom book a trip for my bros and wifes to Europe great beautiful.
But my brother’s wife is still not home. I blame myself for there separation. And the trip made me feel wores because the last time we left the states it was so my older brother won’t get his es wife back.
So in my head this is a repeate of blame. My mom blames me for my older brother marriage. But whatever he is happily remarried with a lil one in the way.
But his ex was scum of the earth and if he did get her back he would be in jail or half way house . how i know this she married his first cousin then was arrested in a ally for cocaine possession.
No joke no lie.
But my other brother’s wife is just stubborn and dose not deserve that kind of treatment. So while in church texting my siblings frantically. The pastor gose on about suicides and depression. Wich was weird cuss i never been to this church before why would church be about this . well cuss god wanted to slap me in the face thats why.
So i have my break down and the next day around five. My brother calls me i have been suicidal over him all day. But i guess his triplet sence kicked in cuss he called me to tell me his wife is on his way home and there leaving to Europe on the 16th .
Truthfully i been better since then i went to a movie i cut my hair off it looks good .
So im ok my stress over him is gone. now my life stress can be handle wich sucks im still homeless so .