So I have this dream on average 5 times a week. Sometimes more, sometimes less. I don’t know if it is a message of some kind or just a dream.
At the beginning of the dream I am six years old. That is how old I was after my dad took his life. I walk into a dark room. I stop and am standing there. All of a sudden a hand grabs my hand. I look up and it is my dad. No words are spoken.
We walk forward until we come to a chair that has a light hanging over it. The only light in the room is lighting up the chair, nothing else. My dad let’s go of my hand and walks over to the chair. He sits down, grabs his pistol, puts it in his mouth and pulls the trigger. I scream. All of a sudden a hand touches my shoulder and it is my dad. But he is in the chair and shot himself.
He points to the chair. I slowly walk over to the chair. I look at the face and it is me. My dad starts laughing and says, I told you if you told anyone you would die. I always wake up at that point.
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What’s it mean? Any idea? Dreams are interesting
you seem like someone who really understands what it’s like to be haunted. the times when not even sleep is an escape.
Randall, I have no idea what it means. I have told very few people about the abuse I suffered at the hands of that monster called my father.
Saudade07, not only am I haunted by the above mentioned dream but I am haunted by the dreams of the abuse I suffered. Every night is a haunting.
i understand completely.
That point in your life is obviously still haunting you and it seems, you have not been able to let go, work past it, sort it all aout, etc. That’s why it’s a recurring dream.
I think the whole point of that dream is that it is telling you that that was when your old self died and you are still figuring out and learning how to live this new self of yours.
That’s pretty Deep man I wonder what the message is in the subconious
Sometimes I feel as it is my dad still controlling me from the grave. No matter how hard I try to get free from his grasp it feels like he holds on harder.
Here’s an extra resource to help: http://www.allianceofhope.org/
The general survivor experience: http://forum.allianceofhope.org/forums/the-survivor-experience.9/
For those who lost parents: http://forum.allianceofhope.org/forums/for-children-who-lost-parents.39/
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The first one went to mod.
Here’s an extra resource to help: http://www.allianceofhope.org/
The general survivor experience: forum.allianceofhope.org/forums/the-survivor-experience.9/
For those who lost parents: forum.allianceofhope.org/forums/for-children-who-lost-parents.39/
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Aggravating, when people may be deeply hurting. The second one went to mod, too. Hope you know to check here, too: suicideproject.org/wp-admin/edit-comments.php
The first one went to mod.
Here’s an extra resource to help: allianceofhope.org
The general survivor experience: forum.allianceofhope.org/forums/the-survivor-experience.9/
For those who lost parents: forum.allianceofhope.org/forums/for-children-who-lost-parents.39/
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I have no idea what it means, but I think it’d make for an awesome film. You should write a screen play and try to get someone to film it. Who knows, it could make your dumptruck loads of cash and get famous all at the same time. But more importantly, it might be good therapy to turn this heavy dream into a writing/film project.