I was thinking about suicide and came to the conclusion that it is also a very “romantic” and passionate thing to do. This may sound awful, but I enjoy reading and hearing about suicides online and in the news. I do feel sorry for their loved ones, but it just inspires me and makes me think if they can do it, so can I and other people who no longer desire life. I try to put myself in their shoes, alone with some gun or rope or at the edge of a cliff ready to dive head first….adrenaline and excitement in their blood knowing life, hopelessness, and suffering are soon to be over. God what a feeling of power…to be able to end one’s life. In the afterlife (if there is one and we somehow retain our memories and personality) I know I’ll look for and give those people a lot of hugs, love, and respect. It takes a lot of nerve to surrender everything and suicide in hopes of peace and freedom. It takes a lot of will. Unless, of course, you’re one of the impulsive types, but still it takes a lot of nerve.
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I’m the same don’t no why
There is no beauty in suicide.n
I think the same way as you Ryder, suicide is a bootyful thing. It’s a different feeling romantic for me personally, even more mysterious and enticing than regular romance. I don’t have concrete expectations about what death will bring but I get excited at the possibilities.
Maybe reincarnation is real and if it is I’ll come back as an ant or blade of grass or even a new born( redo button would be awesome). Maybe it’ll just mean the END of everything I ever knew or thought. Maybe I’ll become a ghost and haunt the people who haunted me all these years. Maybe I’ll be eternally damned or live on a floating cloud called heaven(doubt both those things would ever happen).
Whatever happens after I cease to exist doesn’t scare me it excites me. Obviously when the time comes to do the deed I’ll have a kicking and screaming survival instinct that will probably make it seem less exciting and romantic and more like falling off a roller coaster at the peak but well, hell, I’m not my physical body, it’s just a prison!
Great post, Ryder.
I do fear for the impulsive types because those have a higher risk in surviving, and ending up worse off. One’s final act MUST be well thought out. If you have a lifetime of failures (like me), you certainly don’t want to fail this and end up a vegetable, or paralyzed, or something. Ya know!
A person’s belief is their own business, but personally, if I believed in an afterlife (I don’t), suicide wouldn’t be an option at all. What’s the point of trading one existence for another? Who knows if the next life will be any better? When I was a kid living in Illinois, I always dreamed of living in California. So when I turned 20, I moved to LA. It sucked! I thought it would be great. I dreamed about it for more than 10 years. But it was a huge disappointment. Who says the afterlife wouldn’t be a disappointment? That’s just my take on it.
But since I don’t believe in an afterlife, suicide does make sense; it IS an option.
And yes, if done right, it could very well be the most beautiful experience in your life. But you only get ONE chance at making it right. So it must be well planned, and not done half assed!
Your friend,
Jack
I am like that, I am always fascinated to get to the bottom of the in’s and out’s what m3thod they used, how it was a success out of all the STAS of fails, what did they do differently etc etc… they are very admirable to me the ones that can achieve it, a lot of people talk the talk but very few have what it takes