Hair Cut and Energetic

I got all my hair off yesterday, so now it’s a pixie cut. I’d planned to wait until summer, but I just went to get it done without a second thought. I don’t really know why I did it. I suppose part of it was so the Others don’t recognise me – I’m dyeing it tomorrow, too. The other part is just because through all my racing thoughts, this one stuck.

I did that stupid scale thing with my psychiatrist today. 1-10 for mood, and over the last four days it’s been an 8 or 9, and for my energy it’s 10. I didn’t bother bringing up the Bipolar thing my aunt suggested since it was in a good mood and didn’t want to make the session weird. That, and I was distracted by anything and everything. So my answers were extremely vague the entire hour. Although, my mum literally said, and I quote, “she’s acting very manic all the time’.

I think my mum is getting pissed off with my energy. I talk constantly and too fast for her to understand – which is weird considering I usually talk stupidly slow and quiet. And I’ve been throwing anything into the trolley when we’re shopping, so she ends up spending way too much than she originally planned. But my psychiatrist is alright with me and my safety, so I don’t see her for another 5 weeks. And I see my therapist in 2 weeks.

I’ve had roughly 6 hours sleep for the last 4 days, and I’m so energetic I don’t feel any sleep deprivation at all. I might get the first half of this painting finished tonight, since I doubt I’ll get much sleep again due to racing thoughts, Bree and other things. Oh well.