Wrote it back in 2012, about depression, finally found it hidden in the recesses of my computer.
That little bastard never sleep, always does he creep,
Here now it seeps through me,
Everywhere I am he never agrees,
Righteous ************ just please,
Ease the fuck up you squeeze too tight.
Inside my head you infest,
Silent screams making me depressed.
How the fuck did you get so loud,
Over the others you reign supreme in your own shroud,
Please ************ shut up cause here’s the crowd,
Every voice you ground out now we back ***** shouting loud.
No more will I listen to you,
Every moment dragging me down making me blue,
Virtually all hope you smothered turning the screw,
Eventually I realized I can say we’re through!
Roaring loud for my crew,
Get the fuck down off your throne,
Ignorant fucker this is my zone,
Vicariously you lived through me ya old crone,
Except now this fool wont throw you no bone.
Up in your old throne I sit now, no longer will you bring me down, so stop hanging around,
Peace brothers the voice of evil has finally been put down no longer will it destroy me so I say fuck you, ***** lay down
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This would make an awesome rap song. Truly wonderful writing!
Lol you mean a good rap. Tehe a rap is a rap, a song is a song! Js
O.o
@Hazy, that was actually what i originally planned it for, would need your art on the album cover tho!
@Yebobqa I always thought it was rap song too lol
Just say the word and give me a direction. I’m at your disposal.
What comes to mind is a throne, an evil entity cast down at it’s base, and a personified beacon of hope sitting on the throne with its feet on the cast down entity, while I’ll never release an album I think that would be a bitchen peace of art, something worth hanging on the SP welcome page
@procel: is this why your screen name is Procel?
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@procel: It’s posted. Now you need to record your rap.
Lmao @hazy no, I did not name myself after protein, I did Google the name and that is what shows up. My name actually is that of an angel, of sorts lol. Procel is a fallen angel, and a duke of hell who speaks of secret and hidden things, seemed incredibly appropriate considering the nature of this place.
Yes I saw the painting, I am, as always, blown away by your talent. I have made it the wallpaper on my phone, I hope you don’t mind. And as for me rapping lol, I shall write them but a white Irish dude with a rural accent doesn’t rap well lol
@procel wow I’m honored, yes by all means, I did the painting for you.
As for white irish dude…one word: Eminem.
This kind of made my day haha
@Bloodstainedlips, im glad you enjoyed it, i used to have more like it, perhaps i shall write more like it again
You are a new user yes? sorry to see you here, but glad you found somewhere to go for help, i hope you are finding a warm welcome
I purged everything last week and am looking forward to a clean slate. Procel if you did it once the next time can be even better. I never go back only forward.
@hazy. One of my greatest regrets, is permanently deleting my old posts from when I came here. I’d love to look back at that guy now, cause I’m one strong ************ and I grew from that week angry jackass. But you and I? No matter what we move forward, we change and we constantly become better, its who we are
@procel: wow, I want to burst into “we are the champions” now. You are making me feel really good about batshit crazy. I will conquer!
Right after I’m done drawing some really kick ass cover art. I need to think about this. Hmmmm.
And I just can’t look back at that person struggling. It makes me feel pity, and one thing that I hate is feeling someone feel pity for me, even if it is for myself. So I periodically purge everything. If I had it before, I can do it better next time.
@hazy but we are champions, we go toe to toe with depression every day, with suicidal ideation every day and we still stand after it, that’s incredible, if we aren’t champions then no one is! Perhaps you aren’t ready to look back just yet. But there will come a time when you are ready, and you are going to see just how far you have come, and that’s going to give you strength to keep going
Powerful words, Procel.
There’s a lot of power on this sight @Distant, I merely tap into what’s already here
Procel, you totally rock. Always have, always will. I love that poem. It kind of illustrates what we were talking about on the other thread, and you’re living proof that it works.
I know you’ve talked about how you were a very angry person when you first found this site. I don’t remember that at all, but if you’re talking about writings like this, then I’d call that angry in a good way. Anger, rage and hatred get a bad rap because most people can’t control it. Same thing can be said about love, too (most people can’t control it). But emotions are power, one way or the other.
You mastered it. Whether consciously or not, you figured out that the way to beat that asshole. Rip him out of that throne, step on his adams apple and piss in his ear. Or something like that. But you know, the funny thing I’ve realized? After you win, you can finally let go of that rage. I guess you figured that out a long time ago. Here’s to a long life, buddy 🙂
Yes, that is what I was hoping to illustrate by finding this piece. The never give up because we can win, if we try
Hahaha no, this anger was during an incredibly good time, the anger I had when I came here was wild and bitter, but I think I’ve tamed it, I made it work for me as you say and it became a productive thing that helped me beat my deamons like little girls lol. But letting it go afterward was the tricky thing, that’s where the real skill is, for me anyway. But I seem to manage that too, aren’t I brilliant lol.
Here’s to raising a pint with you someday brother
Procel, Glad your back! 🙂
A hundred wild horses couldn’t keep me away bro!