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@ Salt, this was the old piece i was looking for

by Procel 4/26/2016

written by Procel

Wrote it back in 2012, about depression, finally found it hidden in the recesses of my computer.

That little bastard never sleep, always does he creep,
Here now it seeps through me,
Everywhere I am he never agrees,
Righteous ************ just please,
Ease the fuck up you squeeze too tight.

Inside my head you infest,
Silent screams making me depressed.

How the fuck did you get so loud,
Over the others you reign supreme in your own shroud,
Please ************ shut up cause here’s the crowd,
Every voice you ground out now we back ***** shouting loud.

No more will I listen to you,
Every moment dragging me down […]

4/26/2016 23 comments

I am the color of Boom.

by Hazy Day Sunflower 4/22/2016

written by Hazy Day Sunflower

“Polaroid”

I’m a reckless mistake
I’m a cold night’s intake
I’m a one night too long
I’m a come on too strong
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ufegdUMASzM
All my life I’ve been living in the fast lane
Can’t slow down
I’m a rollin’ freight train
One more time
Gotta start all over
Can’t slow down
I’m a lone red rover

I’m a hold my cards close
I’m a wreck what I love most
I’m a first class let down
I’m a shut up sit down

I am a head case
I am the color of boom
That’s never arriving
At you are the pay raise
Always a touch out of view

4/22/2016 3 comments

Jealousy

by fakeflower 3/7/2016

written by fakeflower

My best friend recently quit university and went to rehab because of her depression/social anxiety. I wish I had the ability to just do that, I wish I had parents who took me seriously. Then again, I can’t blame them, since I have a brother who fought epilepsy for years and is still recovering. They already have one problematic child to take care of. I have to just shut up, I guess.

Also, my best friend isn’t answering my messages, or anyone’s for that matter. I have lost the only person that helped me get through my darkest times. There’s no one else to trust.

3/7/2016 1 comment

Protected: Today, and all last night, D wouldn’t shut up about my guts, and about how much he wants to wrench them from my abdominal cavity.

by whiskered-fish 2/22/2016

written by whiskered-fish

There is no excerpt because this is a protected post.

2/22/2016 14 comments

That night.

by Bunny 1/22/2016

written by Bunny

When i was a freshman, so 14, i tried to commit suicide for the first time. I can’t really explain why. It’s two years later and it still feels like it was all a dream. Sometimes it hits me all at once. Out of nowhere.. like around Christmas, i went and saw my youngest sisters choir concert. I was watching, listening. My dad on one side, my brother on the other. And it hit me.. all at once. Without warning.. as those things tend to do. I looked up at the stage, seeing her sing. My throat got that horrible dry feeling and suddenly the […]

1/22/2016 2 comments

Insomnia plus Rage!!

by Ylem 12/3/2015

written by Ylem

For fucks sake! Can somebody please shut that fucking dog up?!

Its the middle of the night, 02:15 am to be more exactly and I cant sleep because this fucking dog wont shut up.
I swear, if it doesn’t shut up, my rage will reach boiling point and I wont be responsible for my own actions.
It keeps barking and howling, and it wont let me sleep. The images in my head wont go away. Im sick of it. I fucking hate it.
Now Im crying…

12/3/2015 6 comments

Hello

by Costy 11/22/2015

written by Costy

Hello guys. I think I will go next month when I will turn 20. Atheism is right. I ‘ve been through a lot of shit and I think everything is meaningless. Now some of you will say stay alive, some will shut up and some will say go through it. And I think I will go through it. What can be better than eternal silence?

We are just made/evolved so we can reproduce and carry on the species.Everything that happens are just chemicals in our brain. I am really tired. And I hate the most those people that say that life is worth living however it […]

11/22/2015 4 comments

An Aching Heart

by thelost 10/26/2015

written by thelost

Can I start off by asking why? Why did we ever use such a convoluted statement like this? Of course it probably stems from the long held belief that love comes from the heart, so heartbreak must reside there as well. I beg to disagree, heartbreak is not coming from one aspect of your life, it’s from everywhere. You feel it in the very depths of your soul. You can’t walk around without seeing something that reminds you of them. God, it sucks so much to be so alone. I won’t say I love this girl, no that’d be overreacting, also it’d scare the hell […]

10/26/2015 2 comments

shut up your face

by tphg 9/11/2015

written by tphg

I ran out of a burger shop last night. I was all set to gorge on some grade “A” Canadian ANGUS beef, but then I saw that the cashier I (kinda) like was working that day. She smiled and waved at me, even though I was all the way at the back of the line, and so I freaked and got out of there. I’d love to take her out, but I’ll never have the courage for anything more than nervous small talk, with her or with anyone; I’ve only ever dated girls I met online. Not like it matters anyway since I’m such a […]

9/11/2015 13 comments

so fucking hideous

by ackerman 3/25/2015

written by ackerman

I’m usually more eloquent than shouting obscenities at the world, but fuck, no words can articulate the depth of the frustration and hopelessness I feel, swear words can only emphasize their significance. FUCK!!! I’ve suffered from Body Dysmorphic Disorder since I was 13 and it’s fucking killing me, it has ruined everything good in my life, my academic opportunities, my social relationships, the prospect of a romantic relationship, the chance of me achieving higher success in life, it’s all gone to shit because I fucking hate myself. Say the same things as everyone else says to me, I don’t fucking care I’ve heard it all […]

3/25/2015 5 comments

by FreakOfNature 3/2/2015

written by FreakOfNature

I have a handle of vodka, antidepressants, and a razor.

I haven’t properly slept in a little over a week. I’ve probably slept about 4 hours the most.

When I do sleep, I get these nightmares of the same thing. When i’m awake, I see the creature everywhere I go. The voices in my head won’t shut up.

I just want to be free. Is that too much to ask? I feel like a zombie half time. Sleep is my enemy. My mind is hazardous.

I’m tired of crying, i’m tired of sleepless nights, i’m tired of being being tired. I don’t know what the fuck to do anymore.

3/2/2015 23 comments

I fucked up… this is all my fault.

by Bri 1/17/2015

written by Bri

So, I uhm.. fucked up, with a group of friends…

I was chatting with one, and he asked why I was upset. I tried to avoid the topic, I fucking did, but he kept pushing so I finally told him about my depression and how I’m sick and fucking tired of living with it.

He told me “I have no idea what that’s like, but it seems to me that the only way to end it is to be selfish and just end it.”

After he told me that, I just went silent… I went to our friend, and… I told her what he said while I was […]

1/17/2015 4 comments

The Future on My Shoulders

by levi42537 11/8/2014

written by levi42537

I am a high school senior. I have anticipated this moment since grade school, when my loving parents emphasized how school was my number one priority. It supposedly was supposed to make me get ahead of everyone. But now I’ve realized that’s a lie. I used to be so quiet and focused on schoolwork. Now I don’t shut up in class. I’m funny; I like jokes. I’m terribly blunt and say inappropriate things I immediately regret. My grades are dropping even though I’m trying so hard. My boyfriend insists everyone feels how tough it is this year, and I’m sure they do, but I feel […]

11/8/2014 3 comments

hello lovelies

by bittersweetlily 5/22/2014

written by bittersweetlily

Um hi I’m 14 and for the past three years I have had severe anxiety that has gotten gradually worse. It got horrible the second year, my seventh grade year, and I missed half the school year(butÂ I still got As&Bs haha).Â When the level of my anxiety increases I have really bad panic attacks, I am nonstop sobbing, uncontrollably screaming, I get severe stomach aches, headaches, nausea, I vomit(alot), I start hyperventilating, shaking, twitching, I sometimes loose feeling in my hands/feet, my period cramps get worse, and the list goes on. My mom used to yell “you’re doing this to yourself”&”its all in your head”&”shut up […]

5/22/2014 2 comments

Alexis and the wail of doom

by Kallian 4/10/2014

written by Kallian

So, after being off for two days, coming back to work was really nice. After about an hour of actually laughing and joking around, we hear this noise. My ex walks down the entire row of checkstands, through the lobby and stands in the middle of the entryway to the store, crying. Not your usual, sniff sniff, cry. Oh no. I’m talking about wailing. Like a two year old who got decided to throw a tantrum. Â Everyone in the store stops and stares. Everyone but me. I start giggling. Then I realize its not a good idea so I try to make myself shut up. […]

4/10/2014 2 comments

the favorites game.

by Kallian 4/7/2014

written by Kallian

At work I’m supposed to fill out these safety cards, basically saying that I saw a co-worker doing something safe or unsafe. Theres a drawing where you can win a gift card and other stuff. Well, I’ve got to fill out two a week at least. I already did a “safe”one, so today I just wanted to get my “unsafe” card out of the way. Well, guess who I happened to see go outside without his orange vest on. What’s that? My ex, you say? You’re quite right, you smart cookie, you. So I write him up the card, give the info half to my […]

4/7/2014 1 comment

Shut up just shut up

by Remnant The Unbroken 3/26/2014

written by Remnant The Unbroken

I’m sitting here listening to my mother and grandparents babble about all the bad news going on in the world.

I already woke up with an anxiety attack which is now turning into anger, and I have to have a clear mind so I drive to the store later and then to the crazy doctor. Really I just want to throw my cup of coffee against the room and punch a few holes in the wall and tell everyone in the kitchen to shut the hell up.

Just fuck man. Am I crazy?

3/26/2014 164 comments

Day 20

by LetItGo 1/31/2014

written by LetItGo

Hi Guys,

Day 20! 20 daily posts!!! Woo… It’s been a rough and sad journey, BUT we are not done xD.

So how are you guys? (Comment below!!! I’ll try to answer…)

How am I? Physically: Drained Mentally: Drained

My physical state… I have a massive headache, I am terribly tired, I feel sick and blech and *sigh*. Right now it’s one of those moods, those depressed suicidal moods, but I will get through it alive… But maybe I won’t I don’t know…. I just need someone there ya know? I just *sigh* it doesn’t really matter how I feel I guess. I mean really does it? Does […]

1/31/2014 20 comments

Ingrates

by hiddensecrets 5/6/2013

written by hiddensecrets

I have no one to share my feelings with except the web where squalling little children are crying about their life and how “hard” it is because their parents “don’t understand them” and yadda yadda yadda. Get over it, you are 12-15 crying that you hate life and you never get what you want. Well, news flash! Life isn’t fair you little shit. You will learn one day as you grow up and it is going to be one hell of a ride but don’t fucking meander around moping how you have a shitfuck life because your parents won’t let you stay out till 2am […]

5/6/2013 15 comments