You ever just wish there was a button that would end it all? I would have been dead a long time ago. I would be dying right now. My life just kind of hit the fan. I’m 32, my girlfriend/fiance of 4 years just broke up. I was a complete asshole so deserve the pain I am feeling right now. I think this must be the most depressed I have ever been. And I’ve been in the hospital 3 times for attempts…major failure at death apparently. I feel so utterly depressed about my situation that my mind is even too clouded to think seriously about suicide or a plan. I have been cutting deeply again. I feel like such a loser.
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You’re not a loser… and you don’t deserve pain. We all do things that sometimes we wish that we hadn’t done. All we can do is learn from them and move forward.
If you’re feeling very down, have you thought about asking for help? I wouldn’t want you to go down a dark path for a fourth time. Are there certain things you can do to take your mind off of this? For at least a little bit?
Hey distant. Thanks for the reply. I truly appreciate it. I have a therapy session on Sunday so I just have to hold out until then. There weren’t any other available appointments. I’m trying to stick glued to the tv…which sound not good…but it kind of keeps my mind off my own life. Thank you so much again. It’s nice to have someone reply to your post…sometimes posts just get lost in the sadness.
I’m relieved that you have an appointment. If you need help sooner, please go to the ER… or make a call. If TV helps, there’s nothing wrong with that.
We all help each other here… It’s never a problem replying. My email should be visible to you if there’s anything I can do… or listen to.
YES I do wish there was a button to just turn this life off. I made a post about that on this forum before. I wish that life would come with an off button so you can just turn the dam thing off when your sick of it. Unfortunately there is no such button.
There was so many times I wished I had a switch like that. And I still do. Maybe it’s good that we don’t have a button like that. But a restart button would be nice. We could start over. Make things different. Delete all memories.
I was out for a bit but wanted to check back in. Thank you all for the kind responses. Therapy went well. I really do have the most wonderful therapist, which I know is hard to come by. She totally validated my feelings and just generally made me feel okay with being sad. I’m feeling a bit better. I know this will all pass even though it doesn’t feel like it right now. Anways, thank you again. This place has truly and ironically been a lifesaver.