I just wanted to say I came closer the other day than ever before. I never attempted, only thought and spoke and wrote and read about dying every day for 30 years. But Thursday I made initial covert arrangements to obtain in a hurry what I would need. It has been a relief to know I can get it done when I want. It’s empowering.
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Knowing you can get it done but not doing doesn’t it mean you don’t want to do it? At least not yet?
Just not yet. Not today.
There is something or someone keeping you alive.
Turquoise. I did the same option: get it done for when I want. Surprisingly as it can be any time… I started living better and the burden became lighter most of the time.
As in Game of Thrones:
– what do you say to the death?
– not today!
There is a certain reassuring feeling in knowing that the option exists if needed. That’s not to say that it’s inevitable, hopefully we never have to use that option and die after living a full and contented life.
turquoise,
good morning i know exactly what you mean i have everything 10 feet away from me, it’s been there for 3 or 4 years now, i never think about it much anymore, i did at the time, but it’s nice to know if i was dying of a disease or something or was upset i wouldn’t need to run around and find the shit, but remember, never!!!!! go playing around with stuff when you upset, you will make the wrong choice perhaps.
turquoise, Strike upset, i meant if i was sick and in capable of running around.
I definitely understand the soothing feeling of knowing death is within your grasp whenever need be. I hope that the empowerment of knowing you have an available out allows you to pursue living a life where you won’t feel the need to put into action these plans.
There are Buddhist monks who meditate and contemplate on death. If you really get to know death and you know it’s within your grasp and you realize you’re dying a little each day then you know how to live.
Perfect comment Randall!! I’ll discover who these monkeys are and become a follower.
Randall, knowing how to live is what i do best!!! right now steak and eggs and hash browns come to mind i’m starving!!!!