I wish I could tell the people closest to me that I want to end it all.. I wish someone would say: “It’s okay, you can let go.”
I just want to end the pain, the sadness, the constant voice in my head saying that I’m not good enough for anyone or anything.
Last night I was told that nobody will ever love me. I believed that I was destined for love. Now I don’t believe in it anymore.
Does it make me a sinner for wanting to die??
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I know you feel not good enough, I do too. But it is not true. We all heard words from our close people that made us feel unworthy. Just try to prove them wrong. I may sound romantic but I believe that everyone is destined for love. For some people takes a bit longer to find love, like me in my mid 30’s and still alone and trying. Some religions say that taking your own life is a sin. I really don’t care about that. For me a sin is the pain I will cause to some people I know they love me. And for now it’s the only thing keeping me around.
Brokenness,
“Does it make me a sinner for wanting to die??” no i makes you one of us!! 🙂
Love is over rated! however, destined for love? you will find love trust me, but don’t blame me when you do. i’m just a messenger. 🙂
I understand how you feel. I still question that daily.
Look at this post, it might help: http://suicideproject.org/2016/02/purpose-in-life/