I’ve been steady for the past few weeks, but sometimes I get these whiffs of clarity that I would rather be dead. It comes and goes like waves. I’m tired…
I know that feeling, get it every day.
still, you were going alright for a few weeks. that’s a good sign. do you know if there’s any particular thing that sparks that kind of ‘clarity’?
I can understand where you are coming from. I used to feel that way ALL THE TIME> for years on end that was all I could think about was trying to find a peaceful way to die. I fantasized about dying all the time. But things got better for me and I am doing better now. I still struggle with depression and suicidal ideation from time to time… but most of the time I am doing ok and enjoying my life. I know that things can get better.
If you were doing good for some weeks > that is a good sign. Try to get back to thinking positively.
Thanks yeah… It’s hard to get back to thinking positively… I’m in therapy now and it’s helping, but ugh. And yeah, I know what sparks it… different thinking patterns, stuff I think about. I try to distract myself, but when I distract myself nothing gets done and that makes me more depressed. I’m tired of just fighting against myself…
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I want to walking to the ocean and never come back…. just float away like I never existed….
I know that feeling, get it every day.
still, you were going alright for a few weeks. that’s a good sign. do you know if there’s any particular thing that sparks that kind of ‘clarity’?
I can understand where you are coming from. I used to feel that way ALL THE TIME> for years on end that was all I could think about was trying to find a peaceful way to die. I fantasized about dying all the time. But things got better for me and I am doing better now. I still struggle with depression and suicidal ideation from time to time… but most of the time I am doing ok and enjoying my life. I know that things can get better.
If you were doing good for some weeks > that is a good sign. Try to get back to thinking positively.
Thanks yeah… It’s hard to get back to thinking positively… I’m in therapy now and it’s helping, but ugh. And yeah, I know what sparks it… different thinking patterns, stuff I think about. I try to distract myself, but when I distract myself nothing gets done and that makes me more depressed. I’m tired of just fighting against myself…