It has been so hard for my life. I’m at my last year of university and nobody can help me with my topic, feeling hopeless and lonely. I cried every night and haven’t had any meal for 3 days… Feeling so weak and dont want to do anything, but my parents have big faith in me and I dont want to disappoint them. I even take this major because of my parents.
I just want one person who really cares about me and stay by my side whatever happens. I even never date anyone. I have been thinking about suicide before, but I really dont want to end myself that way and it seems so desperate.
I don’t know what to do and just wanna disappear from this world, I hate myself…
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Well you shouldn’t hate yourself. I know I don’t know you personally but from what I read here you sound like you have a lot going for yourself. You sound smart and your in college… and those are good qualities. YES, Everybody wants somebody to be with them through thick and thin. Through the good times and the rough times. We all need that and want that. But sometimes its not so perfectly easy to find the right person. Well coming to the SP forum with your issues is a good start. There are a lot of good people here who are understanding. First Off I would like to say that you try to eat something… and get some exercise. that will bring up your strength. You might want to consider majoring in something that you are passionate about rather then just going for what your parents want. Because I have been to college and I found out that hard way that if you don’t major in what you are passionate about then its really hard to get the work done and graduate. So try to search inside of yourself and find a major you are passionate about. that will make schooling easier on you. As far as trying to find the right person to be with you during your good times and bad times… have you tried dating sites, or online friendship sites. The internet is a pretty good tool to use to try and hook up with the right person. I would like to encourage you to look into those things.
Hang in there. Let us know how thing are going
you know I’m touched and I cried because you’re the first person that told me to eat something, it’s like finally someone cares about me. thank you so much 🙂
you can say I’m pretty smart because I do well in my school before I get to college. I actually play indoor soccer 3 years since I start the college, I love doing sports even I want to take sport major in college but my parents dont allow me to take that.
Yes, you are right. It’s so hard for me in college because of this major. Like what I said that I love doing sports and I want to take sport major but it’s actually my last semester and I dont think I want to take new major because it will hurt my parents and it’s to late. I dont know anymore if I could graduate on time because it’s D-10 to submit my final assigment and I haven’t done anything…
It sounds like your feeling a bit better. That is good its a step in the right direction. Well if you cant change majors at this point then focus on finishing the maor you are now. It sounds like your most of the way through your schooling. So continue on. It will be worth it later in life to complete your schooling. and yes… you must eat something and try to get some exercise too. Have a meal then go for a walk or do some other activity. Try not to sit around doing nothing for too long. That is a sign of depression and it will get worse if you just sit there and make things worse in your head. Try to stay positive. If you need a break from schooling then go out and do something fun with some friends for the evening. That can take the edge or things.
Try to find some POSITIVE people to hang around with. Certainly there must be some good people you can go spend some time with. Try to hang around people who will lift you up and be helpful to you. stay away from losers and criticizers.
Thanks for checking back in and posting again.
Keep posting. Some days on SP its a little slow. but people will get back to you eventually. I wish you the BEST!!!
If you want somebody then you need to date. But you may not be ready to date. So I suggest practice dating. Practice dating is like real dating except you have no intention of having a second date. Most everyone is desperate to make a connection with someone and goes about it b.a.d.l.y! Jump in there with no thought about trying to make the right impression. After some trial and error you’ll learn which way is up.
Good grief, isn’t there abundant narrative out there that choosing a career or field of study based on what your parents want is a recipe for disaster? Stop that! If your parents like a certain subject then make them go to school and study it, preferably in lime coloured shorts and frilly shirts. You do what YOU want to do. After all, you are the one who has to live with it.
Yes, there may be practical considerations since you are so close to graduating. You know your situation best. But, please, plan your future around your desires, not someone else’s.
Good luck!