First..i think i have a social anxiety disorder..im still not sure since i haven’t done any counseling..i already search the symptoms and so on..i wanna ask my parents to take me to a psychologist..but i cant..im afraid that they’ll think its something so serious that they wont stop bragging about it too much..im afraid of what kind of outcome will it be..im not so close to my parents since they are both in other country and im here leaving in my apartment with my sisters..if im going to ask my sisters instead, they’ll probably not believe me because im totally different when im with them..they know that im shy..socially awkward..and not so friendly with others but they think it just that way and dont give attention about it..they think i can overcome it just easily…on the other hand my parents specially my mom is too emotional..she may break down and think that its all her fault..my life is crazy..i have alot of problems since they left me alone when i was 5..my problems just wont stop..they think everthing is fine..as long as i have friends..i have good grades in school..and nobody hate me..but yeah..i have friends..i have 3 friends but i just feel like im a great burden to them..ofcourse nobody will hate me because im so called shy type..but the fuck..its not all like that..im so nervous, afraid,and uncomfortable around people..i dont talk to anyone in class except my friends and teachers..even buying my own food in cafeteria make me so nervous that my hands would sweat..i have problems but nobody around me knows it..nobody actually knows me..my family members already admitted to me that they dont know me..that they dont know whats going on with me..they keep saying that i should stop answering them with “i dont know..i dont care..let it be”…im just so afraid of what they’ll respond thats why i answer them with that or sometimes i just answer them with complete silence..i dont understand myself too..i feel like i should talk with someone professional like psychologist since im already tired of myself..keeping everything by myself is so hard..crying almost every night silently so no one will notice..always thinking of way to get out of everything..everyday i cant stop of thinking if i should commit a suicide..i guess i should just thank my teddy bear for knowing all this three things instead..sometimes i just slap myself to stop being too delusional..i hate myself for not being able to talk..for being nervous afraid and uncomfortable aroud people..for being too silent that i cant hear myself anymore..i hate it..how am i even suppose to ask my parents to take me to a psychologist..in the first place i dont really talk to them..should i just let myself be like this?…my question..should i let myself be miserable as it is?i wanna fix myself but im afraid
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As someone who has screwed up his life in every way possible, my advice would be go for it. Don’t worry too much about the definition of social anxiety – all that matters is that you want help.
All you can do is try to get across to your family that you’re struggling and would really like to talk to a professional about it. It doesn’t have to be a psychologist – it could be a therapist or counselor. It’s ok to need help when you’re young, and your family should understand that.
If for some reason you can’t access professional help then there are other resources potential resources to help.
But try to explain to your family that you need to talk to someone. What’s the worst that could happen?
a lot of your questions can be answered right here on SP! You are surround by pro’s, some can tell you about their social anxiety, some can tell you how you can deal with it, i will tell you the best way to over come it is to face it, put yourself in uncomfortable situations little by little, make small victories, once you discover that these encounters are going to kill you, you grow stronger, social anxiety is mainly over coming your fears of being social, everyone suffers from it, the more you do it the more you can deal with it, avoiding it totally doesn’t cure anything.
ha ha aren’t going to kill you!!!! 🙂 you see! i made a mistake! in front of all my friends on here! i’m not going to die!! it’s actually funny! 🙂 the gods give their love to the brave!